Isolated
I feel so alone. I know that’s a broad statement. But I feel so far from the frequency everyone else is running on. I cannot connect with anybody. I’m so desperate to, and crave it more than anything. I have to know I’m not the only one like this. That experiences the world like this.
Run and frequency… an interesting choice of words, and I wonder if it was the first thing off the top of your head or carefully chosen. If carefully chosen, then you certainly connected with me. I have always felt that way. People might find me fascinating right after I literally run very hard, Sometimes I will get that natural post-running buzz/calm For a few hours, Which seems to release me To be who I feel like I am inside but I don’t get to show most of the time. But then I will just confuse people When I am a duller self at other times, just quiet. My brain seems to be sharper than most sometimes, and duller at other times, So day-to-day connection is hard. What’s it like for you?
I believe I think TOO much. I cannot be comfortable or feel natural in a surface level interaction unless I’m at work. No one is really discussing anything serious about anything. It feels like people care of none of the things I really do. Sometimes when I’m talking to others and I look in their eyes and it feels like nothings there. That’s the disconnect I feel is happening. I’m there in the moment but I don’t feel like anyone else is actually present. Ive carefully picked my words forever, and I think that too is just unusual. I cannot stand to fabricate a fake relationship with someone based of niceties.
@scootiiee
It is not so necessary to think being isolated is so negative. It could protect yourself (for a while of course) from bad experiences. Sometimes it is useful having a period of isolation. It can helping you also to: 1. empower your spirit resistance, that is very important in life. 2. Developping your creativity. 3. Knowing yourself "across yourselves". That are only 3 examples of being isolated can bring you.
I don't mean that life has to be like that. The discuss could be very very long about that subject.
Many good wishes to you!
