“It sounds like you’re very depressed”.
Hi, my name is LJ. My therapist said to me today “it sounds like you’re very depressed”. I’m no stranger to depression, I’ve been diagnosed since I was 5 and I’m now 26, but this time feels different.
This bout snuck up on me and hit me with a brick - I felt like I didn’t want to be alive for the first week, and then I just started feeling nothing. I’m going on week three of this run and I just feel so empty, like absolutely nothing I do makes me feel any better, nothing is filling my cup, nothing makes me feel comfort.
I’ve tried doing my hobbies, painting, reading, being outside, pouring myself into work, sleeping, and nothing is helping. I feel very much like I can’t find a point - like I don’t know what I need or what would help me at this point.
@ljmewyn hi,I can feel what you’re feeling…I’m no stranger to depression either, I saw somewhere it said something like “depression is like a room that when you’re in it there seems no way out,and when you’re out of the room you don’t remember how you got out,you just know it was hard” hope you get out of the room,even though it might feel like there’s nothing to do to get out. Please don’t give up on yourself and stay patient till you get out.You see all these years there have been sometimes that didn’t feel as bad right? I mean it won’t stay as bad,not better ,but not worse hopefully.
From what you said your hobbies are,I gathered Reading is one of them.I can understand how sometimes no new book helps at all,I personally tend to reread the old books i once loved to connect to the comfort of familiar things in the book,so I recommend that rereading.
Also about painting new things,if there are no new ideas catching your interest to paint again,maybe try repainting the old ideas?(you know when you see your old drawings and now you can do better so try it again?)
I’m sorry if my words didn’t help ,I wish I could be more of a help, but hold on ,just hold on and some day it won’t be as dark as it is now🤍
Thank you for your kind words 🩷 I haven’t thought about rereading old books, I might have to give that a try.
It sure is hard, but I don't have a choice but to keep going. I appreciate you, and I hope you’re doing well.
@ljmewyn
I am just going to say I know what its like. I would let you know what you're in for but you're not in for anything.
I would get into more detail but they have a habit of removing my posts for being unsupportive and i know if i tell you what living in an emotional desert is like they will pounce.
