Just expressing myself

Idk what im dealing with but I suspect that its either severe burnout bordering on chronic fatigue and it angers me so much. Im angered because when I needed help when it was first starting out, people kept telling me that I was simply lazy, ungrateful etc. And now there are days when I can't even get out of bed due to pain. I used to be able to get up and exercise because I really enjoy it and now its so hard. Its like my intense religious upbringing has just taken everything away from me and im extremely angry. Even as ive left that place, its as if the effects are still lingering. Im just expressing my anger as I broke down in complete tears wondering if these effects would be permanent. Im truly hoping they wont. Im trying to take it slow but with a full time school course load, its very hard(school has been so hard for me ever since I started and I really just want to finish it and get it out of the way).

Anyways thanks for reading. Im just not doing okay these past few weeks