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Iwuznothere
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PathStep 4 Compassion hearts169 Forum posts80 Forum upvotes127 Current upvotes127 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2026 Member sinceJuly 31, 2026
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I love video games, anime, music, reading, and anything that allows me to have fun. Currently learning how to be more me!


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Just expressing myself
Depression Support / by Iwuznothere
Last post
 October 6th
...See more Idk what im dealing with but I suspect that its either severe burnout bordering on chronic fatigue and it angers me so much. Im angered because when I needed help when it was first starting out, people kept telling me that I was simply lazy, ungrateful etc. And now there are days when I can't even get out of bed due to pain. I used to be able to get up and exercise because I really enjoy it and now its so hard. Its like my intense religious upbringing has just taken everything away from me and im extremely angry. Even as ive left that place, its as if the effects are still lingering. Im just expressing my anger as I broke down in complete tears wondering if these effects would be permanent. Im truly hoping they wont. Im trying to take it slow but with a full time school course load, its very hard(school has been so hard for me ever since I started and I really just want to finish it and get it out of the way). Anyways thanks for reading. Im just not doing okay these past few weeks
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French speakers?
Around the World / by Iwuznothere
Last post
 September 6th
...See more Hello! Any French speakers here? I'd love to practice. I do come from a French family so at one point I was fluent but im starting to lose it little by little lol. We can talk about anything
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Grief
Trauma Support / by Iwuznothere
Last post
 August 29th
...See more Just trying to learn to express my emotions more...i did join the sharing circle but i fear i kind of panicked and cut everything i was trying to express short. Long post ahead.... but sometimes, or at least now im thinking alot about the last 6 years ive spent in complete despair and solitude, endlessly searching for answers. I come from a very very intense religious family where if something is wrong in your life, God is punishing you and you need to pray x amount of hours, fast for x amount of days so that he'll forgive you. Sometimes I'd look at other church members lives and wondered how come their life seemed better despite the fact that I was doing everything "right"? I was so envious and it made me wonder if something was wrong with me or if God just doesnt love me at all. Tbh im starting to question whether or not he exists but thats a topic for another day. Ive never really expressed this pain to others because all I have around me are church members. I never grew outside of the church and as such, I've never really had a life. These last 6 years I have spent completely hating myself and my existence and trying to end it. Every decision i made was either out of fear of punishment or because "god said so". Id stay in harmful situations caused by other church members because any time i would complain, it would be my fault. Im doing so much better right now as ive left the church and really sought out to connect with my inner self but sometimes I look back and ask why? I wish none of it ever happened. Im also resentful to God and the church for taking my family away from me. Sometimes I imagine us actually being able to sit down together and truly express how we feel without always intellectualizing and philosophying it. Sometimes I imagine us being able to take a Sunday off and just...watch something funny and laugh. I spent the last 6 years more focused on being a good Christian rather than truly being ok and following my own path. Ive started doing that now and im alot happier, but I grieve the things ive lost during that time period. The friends I couldve made, the family i could've had, my education journey that coukdve been alot smoother, the proper help i couldve received earlier, etc. Im just really sad about what happened and the loneliness that came out of it. Thanks for reading🙂
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Looking for friends
Friendship Support / by Iwuznothere
Last post
 September 24th
...See more Hi all, I just joined. Ive been feeling pretty lonely for awhile due to a situation that popped up and even news ive received. Im 23 and would love to get to know people. I enjoy anime, reading, video games, bref i enjoy activities of any kind in general. If you're interested in talking and lending an open ear to each other, please contact me :)
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