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User Profile: braveSpruce7209
braveSpruce7209 June 23rd, 2025

It has became a home to me it hurts me a lot but I want that hurt a lot I desire pain of being lonely I'm not able to let go it.. I don't know why but I prefer numbness over happiness or emotions.. Being like this for years this feels safe than letting someone break me again.. Lack of trust creates loneliness and I've isolated myself from everyone.. I'm becoming empty day by day I know this is eating me up... I many times feel likes there's no hope for me to continue but still I'm here.. I'm stuck in this pattern and I know I would never live my life I'll stay like this forever and then in moments of my last breaths I'll regret that maybe I should had choosed different path but I'm not able to.

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User Profile: Voodvins
Voodvins June 23rd, 2025
@braveSpruce7209 I hear a lot of pain and despair in your words, it is true for people with a traumatic past. If you were too sensitive or trusted someone who broke the trust - it is difficult to trust the world. And you are right in some ways, sometimes it is easier not to open up to anyone, and then there will be no one to expect a knife in the back. But you should also try to live life, even on your own, because life does not end with friends. An unpopular opinion, but it is true. Life with yourself - exists and it is not necessarily a complete detachment from everything, believe me. This is how the Stoics lived, this is how the philosophers lived, this is how you can live if you want. Your life can be wonderful, do not let negativity suck you into a black hole of emptiness and hopelessness. Hold on!
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User Profile: braveSpruce7209
braveSpruce7209 OP June 23rd, 2025

@Voodvins

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But I know myself I'll not be able to be happy on own.. Cuz loneliness sucks. In fact it makes me cry on little things I even cry thinking what if my family feels same way and I'm not able to fulfill but I can't.. Seriously I don't know where life is taking me.. I don't feel it has any more meaning left I just have to survive until death knocks or I knock there.

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User Profile: Voodvins
Voodvins June 24th, 2025
@braveSpruce7209 Well, that's also normal and of course, you feel empty now. But still, closing yourself off from life is not the best option. There are millions of people in the world and probably there is someone who can understand you. Perhaps you should communicate with someone not very closely, but at least for the sake of communication itself. In any case, I believe that you will be able to find a balance and your life will become somewhat better in the future. Good luck!
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User Profile: braveSpruce7209
braveSpruce7209 OP June 24th, 2025

Hope so

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