My life

So im new to this thread but ill just open it up like this.

At 16 years of age i got in a head on collision at 75mph-125mph with no signs of braking (how the cops described it) on a motorcycle into a F-550 service truck. I was comatose for 3 1/2 weeks, died 4 times, broke alot of bones (including my left femur in 3 places) i forgot almost everything...even down to tying my shoes. I forgot who i was as a person and fell into depression, had anger issues, my gf at the time i had been with for 2 1/2 years dumped me...it was rough. Fast forward to today, im 39 years old, i have a family of 6, my wife is having an online emotional affair and has no emotional connection with me, i lost my job 4 months ago and the job market sucks where im at, i cant find anything...i was established at one point from 2009-2018 but i havent been able to get re-established since regarding employment. Today i am so much further into a depressed state of mind than ever, my heart is broken, i feel like im on the verge of losing everything and i dont have any support from my wife anymore, she hardly even looks at me. It just keeps getting worse and worse. Im spiraling out of control mentally. I dont know if im coming or going half of the time now. I have never felt this low or pathetic...at 39byears old i have cried more in the past month than i have in my entire life...its sad. Thats why im here. Im sorry, i know many people have way worse problems than me on here but im glad this place exists. To vent, to make friends, and get support or advice from people. Thank you if you read this far!