My mom wont let me take a day off (not looking for input and ranting)
I was offered to work at open house after work time and my boss said I can work half day instead of the whole day. But my mom insist that I work the whole day to make up for leaving half day last week. And I’m not doing arts and crafts and the show and I was asked if I can do that much before open house and I’m not doing the open house and more the admistrative part which is more my what I do at work. I don’t know I already feel like I’m overworked and don’t want to do anything anymore and my mom spaces me to held her wit gardening and says I’m lazy. I just feel done like my life is not going to get better this is it. This is my life. That’s why I feel done. I don’t even get respect in life and had low self esteem my whole life. And no friends not that I care about having friends anymore. I know I’m an adult and midway through my forties yet I still get talked down my whole life and feel that no one cares about what I do. That’s why I feel like I’m done with everything in general.
@jadedhue
That sounds so frustrating. Putting in the effort at work and then coming home to be called lazy and pushed into gardening would wear anyone out. I'm sorry that, as an adult, you're getting talked down to and not given basic respect or the downtime you earned.
It’s like my mother doesn’t notice how worn out I am and think I can still work since “I’m young” I’m 35 that wouldn’t be considered young. But I feel I don’t get enough downtime or vacations where I can recharge. I already feel like I’m at my limit and no one notices or cares for the matter leading me to be resentful I’m not trying to be. But I can’t help it to feel that I don’t matter. And I’m just here to be useful and that’s it. I don’t even feel like a person. It sucks. I’m just ranting but thank you for hearing me out.
Your mum was treated badly now treats you in similar way perhaps better I don’t know.
You can have life for you and still help her. But please have life for you.
We don’t deserve respect but crave it, a former doctor had respect had mental health problems now is looked down on. Craving people revere us is a guilded cage.
But companionship and not putting up with abuse is important. Women tend to do most child rearing but men want children, so men go for younger women. Please date.