Relapse?
Is it possible to have a depression relapse? I’ve been so happy for what felt like so long. I dont know whats happened or what problem occurred. I just feel empty and defeated. Like theres nothing left for me. Like a dark hole that immersed from within me and swallowed me whole… I can still feel tho. I can still laugh and enjoy whatever it is that i’m doing. But the happiness I once felt before is gone. Kinda like the carbonation in sodas, it just fizzles away till it’s flat. If only I were flat. The cap on that bottle was temporary, no. It’s lost. I won’t give in so easily to saying my happiness was temporary. I just need time. Time to find where I heal. Find some love and admiration for myself again. I’m trying to be strong. I really am, but my guard has fallen into the hands of new. New people that I’m scared wouldn’t understand. Im chasing something. I have a goal. I want that goal. I have people I love and they love me. So why? Why am I feeling so down.
💛bibi💛
Yes, relapses are possible and they sometimes feel really bad. Remember that your brain chemicals can get off again and it isn't really your fault. But the great thing is that you know what to do now. You know what worked before. So be kind to yourself and give yourself some solid healing time. You will be amazed at how much more quickly you can rebound this time.
Feel free to add to this thread any time if you want a boost of support. You can do this. @BibiLove
Sending peace. @BibiLove
I feel a pain in my side. Like a punishment I have no control of. My smiles rise and fall with every wave of blue. I fight it off. The weird dark cloud that coats me, making me feel as if Im being pulled down. Wanting to only lay down and sleep to finally get some peace. I don’t. I know what that is. I know it’s my dark cloud building and getting stronger with every indulge. My friends light me up and the weight is lifted. It’s difficult to be without them, but I carry my pain without them for a while, and grow… until it’s time.
💛bibi💛
I have been in that weird dark cloud too. It is hard because it seems to arrive without warning.
What kinds of things do you do that help you get out of it, even briefly? It is great that you can see your friends offering their support.
Sending lots of peace and strength. @BibiLove
I have been thinking about you. Sending peace and strength. @BibiLove
How are things? @BibiLove
Things have been good but a little lonely
I am sorry to hear about the loneliness. It definitely happens. Did you want to start a bit of a conversation here? It might help. I'd love to know more about you.
I am a bit slow since I only answer once every 48 hours, but I am very dedicated and regular. You can know that I will respond and I love taking the time to make small friendships here. @BibiLove
Still thinking about you. @BibiLove
Sending lots of peace. @BibiLove