So far from reality.

I daydream a lot about what I'd want to have. Iwonder if that makes me delusional or unreasonable.

Just to be a part of a group in just silence would be enough. O think of those vids about "adopting an introvert" and think of how lucky one would be to have that.

Humans aren't cuddly. Everything has to be a romantic, sexual, or other binding and transactional purpose. I'd just like to be able to hold someone and feel their warmth again without fear of hurting one another, or judgement, or to be taken advantage of. Not to be seen as being an item, trophy, or other thing to be put on display because that's so harmful and negative.

I wish we still had small towns with no need to expand, colonize, industrialize. Where everyone knew each other because they are simply your neighbors. Now any face you pass by on the streets could have died yesterday, and you would never. The life of one matters so much less now. If I disappeared, only a few people would remember but not do a thing about it. Just another day in paradise.

At least the Amish has something right. The screaming voices of millions is such *** than immediate kin and small world of community.

What am I even here for if I cant change and adapt to the cruel fate of being swallowed alive by the masses. Chewed, crushed, sliced, and spit out.

Am I too smart for most men?

Or am I too tainted, ignorant, and fragile for most men to understand?

Nothing will happen and nothing will change.

We're not in kansas anymore.