Spiraling from a good day into a depressive mindset

I swear, I had a good day yesterday. I laid awake around midnight, I had been tossing and turning for hours and had finally decided to talk to some friends. Shortly after beginning the conversation, I began to spiral. We had started talking about the woes of work life, sharing the struggles we had dealt with that day. While my friends lemented over corporate struggles, I shared that I was busy fighting my bosses to get a 30 minute lunch break. A struggle I didnt realize i would be having at 31 years old. I also didnt imagine I'd still be working retail at this age.. then the conversation shifted to college/university. A sore subject for me as I had chosen to drop out of college due to schedule stress mixed with my depression.

So I spiraled. Why? Purely because I feel I've been left in the dust, struggling to navigate adulthood and wondering if I'll ever do something more than work a dead-end job that makes me feel worthless. And then in that moment I remembered how truly broken I feel.

I remembered the moment from earlier in the day when my med alarm went off at work. My coworker had notice that it said "6 medications to take". I thought of each med and recalled that half of them are psych meds and one is for my diabetes. The other two are generic "getting older" type meds (cholesteroland acid controller). But more than half my medications make me feel broken.

TLDR; This is a lot of rambling to say that I feel like the depression I had developed from a young age has stunted my growth into adulthood and I feel stuck and even more depressed at the prospect. I dont know how to move forward from here and even if given directions, Im scared of the unknown.