Still Waiting for My Life to Begin
Seeing everyone grow in life genuinely makes me happy. I'm not jealous of anyone's success, relationship, or happiness. If anything, I feel proud of the people I once knew. But sometimes I can't help asking myself... why does it always feel like I'm the one left behind? I'm not comparing my life with others but...
For the past three years, it feels like I've been living the same loop. I keep trying, working hard, hoping things will finally change, but somehow I always end up in the same place. No stable relationship. No stable health. No stable job. It's exhausting to keep fighting the same battles over and over again. I'm trying. I'm genuinely trying. But some days it feels like no matter how hard I keep going, stability always stays just out of reach.
I don't want to be jealous of anyone. I just wish, for once, life would feel a little less exhausting and a little more peaceful.
But now loneliness is becoming heavier than I can explain. It's not just about being alone it's the feeling that life keeps moving for everyone else while mine stays stuck. I don't want a perfect life. I just wish that, after trying so hard for so long, something would finally change. I just want to feel like my life is moving forward too. 💙
@versatilePear5431
hey, yeah, it can be so disheartening when you don’t know how much longer you will need to wait to see results of your efforts. It’s still seems to be the only logical choice to keep going. I used to tell that to myself. Cause if not that, then what? Giving up means going down. Staying in place means not reaching more.
I do understand not wanting to waist your energy to explain something again to someone who doesn’t seem to listen. I just want to say that you feeling annoyed is not a failure in my eyes. It sounds like a response to a pattern and not just the single situation. And feeling annoyed like that might be a legit information you get from yourself (if that makes sense)
Feel free to check my bio and ping me if you would like to chat a little more 🌸
