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versatilePear5431
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Got triggered by something small today
Anxiety Support / by versatilePear5431
Last post
 September 7th
...See more I’m with someone who is genuinely very good to me. He makes time for me, calmly handles my 1000 overthinking questions, never gets angry or irritated, and is genuinely consistent and caring and loving too. I have no reason to think he’s fake or a bad person. But today I noticed he had liked some pictures of another girl, and it triggered me really badly. I felt sick and extremely disappointed, especially because I have a hard time trusting people and had finally started trusting him. I know it may sound small, and I know I’m probably reacting more strongly because I had really worst experiences in past also I’m emotionally attached and PMSing, but it brought up so many feelings around trust and being disappointed. He has chose me everyday no doubt reassures me can't make him a totally bad person too he is too trying to change his such bad habits from his past. I don’t even understand why this triggered me so much. I just want to understand these emotional triggers and learn how to deal with them without immediately assuming the worst. Also I'm already dealing with my mental health plus severe migraine.
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When Happiness Feels Scary
Anxiety Support / by versatilePear5431
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 3 days ago
...See more This month has been unexpectedly emotional for me. I met someone I genuinely like and feel safe and comfortable with, and things have progressed more seriously than I expected. I’m genuinely grateful for everything happening, and I’m not complaining at all, but I’m also dealing with my mental health and find myself getting anxious and overthinking wondering why someone would choose me and whether I can trust something good without expecting it to go wrong. I know a lot of this comes from my past traumas, and I’m trying to understand and work through these feelings rather than letting them affect something that is making me genuinely happy.
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Still Waiting for My Life to Begin
Depression Support / by versatilePear5431
Last post
 July 31st
...See more Seeing everyone grow in life genuinely makes me happy. I'm not jealous of anyone's success, relationship, or happiness. If anything, I feel proud of the people I once knew. But sometimes I can't help asking myself... why does it always feel like I'm the one left behind? I'm not comparing my life with others but... For the past three years, it feels like I've been living the same loop. I keep trying, working hard, hoping things will finally change, but somehow I always end up in the same place. No stable relationship. No stable health. No stable job. It's exhausting to keep fighting the same battles over and over again. I'm trying. I'm genuinely trying. But some days it feels like no matter how hard I keep going, stability always stays just out of reach. I don't want to be jealous of anyone. I just wish, for once, life would feel a little less exhausting and a little more peaceful. But now loneliness is becoming heavier than I can explain. It's not just about being alone it's the feeling that life keeps moving for everyone else while mine stays stuck. I don't want a perfect life. I just wish that, after trying so hard for so long, something would finally change. I just want to feel like my life is moving forward too. 💙
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Living With Emotional Triggers
Anxiety Support / by versatilePear5431
Last post
 July 31st
...See more Woke up this morning already feeling emotionally exhausted. I wasn't even complaining I just felt low, overwhelmed, and so tired. Before sleeping, I clearly told my mum not to wake me up because my sleep cycle has been a mess lately. But this morning she banged on my door over something so small, and that was it. Once I'm awake, I can't fall back asleep, and it completely ruined the little rest I had. I know these things seem insignificant. I know a door banging isn't the end of the world. That's exactly what frustrates me I know it shouldn't affect me this much, but it does. I don't like yelling or taking my frustration out on people, so I just go quiet. I don't even have the energy to explain what's wrong. Sometimes I can't believe how emotionally fragile I've become. A loud bang, a small joke, even the sound of a spoon falling can make me feel overwhelmed, and before I know it, I'm crying like a child. I'm just so tired of feeling everything so deeply.
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How do I keep trying?
Anxiety Support / by versatilePear5431
Last post
 July 28th
...See more I'm tired. For the past few years, it feels like life has only been about healing, learning, growing, and waiting. I kept telling myself, "Just a little longer, things will get better." I held onto that hope because I genuinely believed my time would come. But lately... that hope is starting to feel heavy. Every day I try to stay positive. I pick myself up, tell myself not to give up, and keep moving. But some days, it feels like I'm carrying the weight of everything alone. Nothing feels good. Just uncertainty after uncertainty. I'm still trying. I'm still hoping. I haven't given up. I just wish life would meet me halfway for once. I don't need everything to be perfect. I just want a phase of life where I can breathe without constantly fighting, healing, or waiting for things to get better. Maybe tomorrow will be kinder. Until then... I'm just trying to hold on to the little hope I have left.
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