Still in love with a toxic ex
It’s been 4 months since we broke up…. We’ve dated for a year and a half on and off, broke up for a month then got back, broke up officially in September of 2024, this year would’ve been 2 years of our relationship. It still haunts me…I’m still in love with him, last night I had a dream about him telling me that his changed and he wants me back, woke up this morning feeling depressed. I only think about the “good times” we shared. Thou his the reason my anxiety would spike up everytime. I once had an anxiety attack, tried calling him and he never pick up…thou I'm still somehow in love with him, and it’s really killing me inside.
@scarletblueberry0511 It seems that you are grieveing the relationship due to breaking up. I'm sorry a part of you is hurting inside, but it's understandable. You've committed 1.5 years of your life being with him and now the relationship has ended. Losing feelings for someone you love doesn't just end overnight. Sometimes it takes time to heal and I hope that you take all the time you need to do so. I admire that you despite not so good, you choose to focus of the past good of your relationship. But please don't ignore certain red flags. I'm sorry that he was not available to you at a time you needed him most. I'm not sure why or who's idea it was for the breakup, but I'm hoping you find peace and healing. We can love people all we want, but sadly, sometime love on one party's side is not enough to keep two people together. The same way you said you are still in love with him is the same way I'm hoping you would say "I'm in love with me and I pick me." ♡ You truly deserve all the happiness, love, and respect. You deserve to be made a priority and supportive. I hope you feel better, blueberry! ♡