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I wish a miracle could happen like in movies where a mentor sees something special in a kid and decides to be his guardian and get them out of their shell and start teaching them life. Or maybe a group of best friends when they decide to help the weirdo shy kid to get out of her comfort zone and create a whole new character and look for her. Can someone change me please? Or just get me out of here!
Or maybe adopt me. Like mentally or something.
I'm sorry you're dealing with that.
I used to have a similar dream, albeit a little bit different.
I wished that someone would adopt me away from my physically & verbally abusive parents at the time. As I grew older, I learnt to be that mentor myself and my own parent.
I don't know what it feels like to have parents, but became OK with that. I think it helped me make friends in the past. People saw me as their rock and stone. It was both a good and bad thing. Good because I was reliable, but bad due to burnout and not having the same support in return...
Anyways...
Currently, I am not seeking IRL friends, until I figure out some trauma related stuff, but I am making online friends based on hobbies. Maybe this time around, I could find a mentor this way.
I hope you also are able to find the group of friends or mentors you seek!
This is the second time i relate to you. Agoraphobia and being reliable/burnout thing. I really wish the universe would take a good turn on us and everything works out.