The truth

The truth is, being a 14 year old I got so many issues, affecting my life in negative ways. I've gone through so much, and I still will. I'm normal, I can have fun a lot, I can enjoy those moments. I'm addicted to pornography and the internet. I think those things will make me fulfilled, when in fact it wont. I feel like I can't change. I force myself to think of these thoughts, because they cure my boredom. I feel dumb and stupid all the times, at the same time I feel this is all fake, but it's real. I know the world is better without me and at times I force myself to think that.