Thought I was doing better...
Well... didn't think I'd be back but here I am. Things were doing so much better, and now the smallest thing has me spiraling right back down.
Definitely still not completely put back together as much as I thought...
What's worse is I feel like a good cry would help, but I haven't been able to do that in over a decade even when I want nothing more...
@honestThinker7095 hey<3
It's okay to feel disappointed and heartbroken, healing takes time and you are allowed to be fragile while you gain your strength back. You've been on a journey and showed yourself that you can do it, it sucks to have to go through the difficult phase all over again but you have what it takes to get out of it and you will<3
I agree with you that a good cry feels therapeutic but it can be difficult to cry when we have a lot of suppressed emotions or are in a constant fight or flight mode. Allow yourself to be vulnerable, allow yourself to sit with your emotions, maybe try creating an environment for yourself that feels safe and hopefully that helps you release all the emotions and pain you've been bottling up. It's okay if you've tried it all and it's okay if it takes time<3 I hope someday you be able to heal completely.