Tips?

This year has been really hard for me, from being a person with so many friends to someone who feels like they have none. My friends don’t like me anymore since people keep talking bad about me. I try not to let it get to me, but I keep up at night because of it, ex: I’m up rn writting this.

I have a really hard time reaching out. I don’t like being the problem at all. I don’t want to be judged either by my family but tonight I just keep thinking this. And I believe I should speak with a therapist. I’m really scared to ask my mom. I don’t want her to think I have problems, nor my entire family. I don’t want to be judged or thought of differently just because I struggle. I have these issues and I haven’t been to therapy in years.. I’m just nervous to ask again. Any tips on what to do?