Tired..
Mentally I feel drained and low. I just wished I had a better life. I wish some people didnt came into my life but ik it was for my learning and growth but it hurts me. I’m 20 and i live alone. I am starting to slowly just loose interests in somethings and i just want to isolate myself atp.
@bondisrising
It is exhausting when we are struggling. We can't wish things away unfortunately.
interesting you said if people were a lesson or for growth. There is a saying I heard not sure who originally said it but ... here it is " people are either a lesson or a blessing that come into our lives".
Sometimes we do not know which one for a while lol. I found in my experience blessings seem fleeting and they come and go quickly. I also learned difficult situations that linger I was not embracing whatever lesson or growth. I ask the universe or whatever one believes in for new "teachers" that I can understand what I am supposed to learn better... that has worked for me. sometimes it is trading one jerk for another, but I get the ah-ha clarity.
maybe you are the lesson in their life, and you can resolve the situation by teaching them something faster. 😄
@bondisrising
Somehow the default paths from hopeless situations are not great. The trauma or depression messes up with our mindset pulling away from happiness. It seems to me like if it was creating protective cages. It’s just that sometimes those shield very well from good experiences and not so well from the bad ones. The blows are just supposed to be softened by the mantra “you knew you couldn’t count for anything better”. It’s sounds like your experience wants to isolate you. Isolation sounds like giving up on yourself. Could it be that what you need is different than that?
Thoughts?
