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I became an author the end of January I moved out of my parents house mid February. After 31 years of not being on my own it's taking a toll on me now that i am. I've been feeling depressed on and off for about 15 years but it seems as I get older it gets worse Plus a big bucket of anxiety. And I get treated like a tool to.. I don't like meeting new people it's hard for me because when I meet them I'll be outgoing and such but then I'll just shutdown and ghost, not because i trying to but because I become very self-conscious, shy, introverted and i feel like everyone is either patronizing me, doing things intentionally that aggravate my anxiety and *** me off, or both, almost like they WANT to see me have a panick attack. I've been glued to my apartment i dnt go out i haven't been eating well,sleeping well, taking care of my hygiene, I've been very inactive and I am prone to blood clotting so as a result I have an active blood clot. I have been crying on and off for almost a week I am so tired ( not meaning physically but mentally) and It's also affecting me at work. What takes me minutes may take me over an hour I become very repetitive I stare out into space a lot I feel so much tension in my body not really from worker everyday stress but anxiety/depression stress. I get a heavy heart I start sweating my heart pounds my back feels like I've done days of physically labor when I've just been walking or sitting. This might not seem like much but it's everything and I feel like no one gets that. I need someone to get it. I want to know it's not just "all in my head". 😭