Unemployed and, on top of that, stupid.

Hi, I'm new here. I've been feeling really awful lately. It's easier for me to pretend I'm okay than to explain what's going on to someone in my family, because it usually turns into them making it all about themselves instead of listening.

The thing is, I'm unemployed. I studied a degree mainly to make my father happy. On the day of my final project presentation, he showed up almost at the end because of work. Now he's telling me I should get a master's degree because of the networking opportunities.

He knows what happened during my final project: my advisors covered up the abuse I went through.

At my last job, I was fired because I stood up for myself against a manager who mocked me and refused to take responsibility for her own mistakes.

He doesn't know that I got myself into debt because I made stupid decisions, and my ex-partner never helped me. He walked away before I even got the job where I had that abusive manager.

Thanks to my mom, my debt has gone down, but I don't want to keep telling her everything that's happening to me because she's already dealing with my sister's health. Last year my sister had sarcomas removed from her lung, and now she's dealing with something in her abdomen that's causing very heavy menstrual bleeding.

I use GPT so I don't lose my mind. I don't want to overwhelm my therapist.

Anyway, thank you if you took the time to read this.