Weird Emotions Throughout the Day
Hello guys!
I was wondering and wanted to share what I've been experiencing over the last few days. So I have been struggling with deep depression for about 3.5 weeks now, and recently got put on an SSRI (today is my fifth day on it). I know that these products take weeks to take effect; however, I have noticed changes in my mood. For example, yesterday I was super low in the morning, then content, then super happy, then content. Then today, I felt super numb/hypermotional, happy, super happy, then numb/gloomy right now (but not nearly as low or heavy). Before this, I went through cycles of deep, deep lows to numbness. Obviously not wanting medical advice, but rather some experiences and guidance. Could I be healing? Is this temporary (I was happy a few days a week and a half ago, then became depressed again)? Is it all a placebo? I know everyone’s experiences are different, and I have never had a severe episode before. I was hoping for some advice on what I should do moving forward, and to hear what recovery may look like for a bit of hope. I am also just super anxious as I struggle with health anxiety and do not want to feel like a zombie coming out of this (med-induced or not). Should this emptiness/numbness fade? Thank you for any perspective or advice!
@quietPenguin6743 Also, I felt myself finding interest in other things a bit yesterday! Then I did a bit this morning before this numbness hit!
@quietPenguin6743 with meds it's hard to get the right ones and right dosage for you. I'm so sorry depression has hit so badly 🙁 starting to feel interest in things again is a great sign💖 but most importantly through this stage be kind to yourself find and do any of those little things that make you smile normally💖 try accomplishing just little things like take a shower or sit in the garden 💖 and yes sweetie depressive episodes are incredibly hard, but you will see brighter days💖 so hold onto hope, reach out when you need to and don't give up 💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 I'm right here for you 💗