Why again? 😔
Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning all over again.
I keep wondering if I’ll ever feel stable for even a week.
It makes no sense — it feels like something is gripping my chest, tight and cold.
Fear.
Loneliness.
Fear of losing the few things I have left.
Maybe I’m full of fear, more than I admit.
I’m terrified of being alone, yet isolating myself feels strangely comforting.
It’s frustrating to imagine going back to my doctor again, saying, “I’m still not okay.”
Nothing fills the emptiness, so what am I supposed to do?
Yes, I still have hope — a lot of it — but something feels off, like a constant stabbing sensation in the background.
I know that someday things will feel better, that everything eventually passes.
I’m not losing hope, but I’m scared of who I am right now.
Will I ever change?
Can I even picture a better version of myself?
What exactly is this feeling I’m carrying?
Why do I feel like I don’t belong to anyone?
Like I have no one I can be vulnerable with, no one who feels safe to open up to, the one who i can feel I won't be judged here?
Maybe there is someone. Maybe I’ve just been too overwhelmed to notice.
But right now… something feels wrong with me, and I don’t know how to name it.
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I'm sorry you don't know how to name it 💚
I get, it's frustrating going back to the doctor, but it's important that you feel good within you.
That's what matters the most.
How you feel.
Here you are appreciated.
And bubbly.
Brimming with fun.
Kind.
Warm.
A heart as big as ever.
I want you to know, I've always got you 💚
@Amanda84
Thank you so much, Amanda, you never failed be there for me anyways. i really needed this word's today. it's just getting hard to even move again:(
I'm afraid what if i stayed forever like i am now? I'm Afraid what if my fear overtook my hope and courage remains:(
Now, I'm doubting myself, will i be ever enough for myself? I'm completely uncertain.
Thank you so much for saying that you're with me, only this platform and the people's keep me alive as far. I'm ao grateful for y'all. 💝
Hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Hi. I'm really sorry that you are going through this, dear.
I can feel you.
It sounds overwhelming.
But the fact that u still managed to show up and share this, even when things are hard, is just real strength❤️ And u don't have to name it anyway
You are one of the sweetest and kindest souls i met here.. and i want u to know that even i might not have advice or answers, i still wanna be here for you. Rooting for you. With no judgement.
Hoping that things would get better for you🤍
Lots of love❤️🫂
@enthusiasticHouse3272
Hey hi nethu 😊..!!
Thank you for those sweetest words ever, I'm so Glad to have here with me.
I'll carry those words so to my heart. 💗
It mean's a lot to hear that there is someone who got ur back, Care for u:)
Thank you so much agn, and yeah... I'm always here for u too, who love u, care for u... you alway's count on me. 💝
Hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I was actually waiting to hear from you. I hope things are ok, and even if they are not, that's fine too!
I'm glad to be there by your side if u need me. Anytime :)
And i know how much of a sweet soul you are! I know that i can always count on you✨
Just like that, u can count on me too!
Lots of love! and.. big big hugss🫂❤️
@enthusiasticHouse3272
Hey nethu...! hiw u doing? I'm sorry i couldn't be able to reply earlier, i wasn't here around for the last 3 day's, i just caught with my other stuffs:( Never mind my late response!!
I'm so happy someone waited to hear from, counting on me... it mean a lot more than u could ever think of. 💗
I'm so glad that you're here me, those supportive word's would really help me Move Forward evn in my hardships Sweetie 💞✨
Love you so much, thank for being there for me Sweetie 😊.
Received all ur love's towards me, sending back way more love and blessings ur way's. i love the way ur and the way of u to support me. 😇
Hugs 🤗💗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Heyy. im just hanging in there. i hope you are doing alright and im really happy to hear from you!!! 🩵🫂
Love u too ailura❤️
@enthusiasticHouse3272
Aww...!!😊 thank you, sweetie 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 sits beside you and hugs you tightly 💖 depression is like a monster who rears his ugly head whenever he wants to🙁 at those times when you need to be extra kind to yourself 💖 and always reach out 💖 it's ok to be honest with your doctor. And it's ok to not be feeling great. You are loved by so many people here, including me💖 I hope your doing ok today?
@Tinywhisper11
Hey hi lola 😇. How u doing?
I'm sorry, i wasn't available here around laste 3 day's, i just stuck up with my stuffs here. never mind my late response. 💜
Thank you for those supportive, sweet and lovely word's for me:) Nd those are true, idk why it wasn't losing it's grips from me... just keep messing around.
But when i do feel this way, i can't stop myself feeling bad abt being negative. just keep putting myself down for being like this.
Thank you for your support 😊 it mean's a lot for me. I really love ur lively presence around here. 🤗💕
Giant Hugs back 🤗
