Why am I here
I tried to make my life into something. One hurdle after the next. It gets tiring. Exhausted, frustrated, fed up. I feel unheard and it's life if I tell how I really feel no one cares. It just gets swept under the rug like whatever. They say your here on earth to experience joy. You experience the whole spectrum so I guess it's all just inevitable.
@amicableox0685
I'm really sorry to hear you are struggling and feel alone.
We all need to feel heard and cared for.
💜💖
@Amanda84
Thank you Amanda, a lot of the times what I feel comes from past stuff. I've been trying to push past old behaviors since 6. I'm 40 now. We've all heard it before where someone developed habits that they are trying to change. Good news is that I actually have been getting better. For the first time ever I've reached 41 days. Slipped unfortunately but that's a huge win. Trying to untie these last few mental knots I have.
The biggest thing I've realized that streaks aren't important in recovery. It's the inner peace you develope. So I'm actively working on that and it feels great. It becoming my default.
Thank you for the reply.
-Ox
