burnt out

doing literally anything is so hard when you don’t give a ***

im so so so tired

i have no interest in doing anything

usually when i feel this way i feel better in a couple of days

or after hanging out with my friends

but it’s been months and i only feel worse i’m scared i’ll just continue to feel this way, i’ve been in constant panic i’m actually crashing out why am i like this i’m not supposed to be like this

it’s just going to get worse again

i don’t know what to do with myself i have a heavy heart no matter what i’m doing

i feel so hopeless

because every time i thought life was finally gonna treat me good i get hit by a train

i have a lot of free time now but i don’t know what makes me happy anymore

i just don’t feel like myself anymore and every time i get my *** together something else happens and completely wrecks me like i could never catch a break

i try to change and be more positive but things just keep happening to me

it gets to a point

my life is over then morning comes again and i

i wish my vocabulary was big enough to explain everything exactly how it feels

why did things turn out this way

i’d do it all differently