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rationalApricot2093
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17 yo

it's so strange, deciding, how i feel about it

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Depression Support / by rationalApricot2093
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 16 hours ago
...See more what's the right approach for your friends not being bad friends but they're still not good friends n they just kept indirectly hurting you
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idk what to do w myself rn
Depression Support / by rationalApricot2093
Last post
 July 4th
...See more i've been feeling extremely burnt out for a very long time now, i just feel so drained and overwhelmed i don't know how to get better anymore usually when i feel this way it gets better in a week but i just feel so hopeless i'm just worried am i gonna get better again it really doesn't feel like it i've been let down so many times i just feel very stupid every time i get my hopes up and everything goes wrong again and again but i can't help but feel excited that something may work out once it really gets to a point i feel so so tired i just really wanna move on and heal but every time i try to something new happens and it all comes back i just think maybe the problem is within? like even when i'm doing better i still have that same empty feeling and i don't have any more energy left in me to keep pushing and putting effort in every day cuz it just doesn't go away it just feels like my body completely gave up before i do in some way i keep having panic attacks out of nowhere, my sleep quality has been terrible my heart hurts and my anxiety is over the roof i feel lost does anyone know how i can fix this?
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trying to heal makes me realize my problems are within
Depression Support / by rationalApricot2093
Last post
 June 1st
...See more i can't seem to move on from how things have been it's been years i'm turning 17 this month and life has genuinely gotten better i made new friends i cut off the people who hurt me i thought after all this things will get better but it didn't i feel so much worse somehow it feels like nothing has been resolved and i just walked away, i chose not to speak now it haunts me forever how i didn't do myself justice and i jusr let myself be misunderstood and mistreated i don't know how to fix that it weirdly feels wrong for me to feel good like i have this deep rooted self hatred for myself i wish i could change that like i could never see the good things i did or been through i only focus on the negativity and live in it, always criticizing myself when i don't realize it. i always forget that others aren't perfect which is stupid obviously everyone has their own mistakes and flaws but i always view people better than me even when they're not i'm not sure if i just lack confidence or something i've just been hurt way too many times to trust myself again but i know i'm so much better than i give myself credit for i got bullied in middle school back then now i'm scared of being judged and scared of being seen when i'm not preforming well if that makes sense ugh i hate how i have to go through *** at night then have to go to school the next day it's bad at school and bad at home idk where to go anymore i feel so lonely
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burnt out
Depression Support / by rationalApricot2093
Last post
 June 2nd
...See more doing literally anything is so hard when you don’t give a *** im so so so tired i have no interest in doing anything usually when i feel this way i feel better in a couple of days or after hanging out with my friends but it’s been months and i only feel worse i’m scared i’ll just continue to feel this way, i’ve been in constant panic i’m actually crashing out why am i like this i’m not supposed to be like this it’s just going to get worse again i don’t know what to do with myself i have a heavy heart no matter what i’m doing i feel so hopeless because every time i thought life was finally gonna treat me good i get hit by a train i have a lot of free time now but i don’t know what makes me happy anymore i just don’t feel like myself anymore and every time i get my *** together something else happens and completely wrecks me like i could never catch a break i try to change and be more positive but things just keep happening to me it gets to a point my life is over then morning comes again and i i wish my vocabulary was big enough to explain everything exactly how it feels why did things turn out this way i’d do it all differently
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