fleeting happiness

i was happy. even though i don’t believe in happiness i was happy. i was smiling. i had a twinkle in my eye. my heart was so light. i was going on vacation tomorrow. i really desperately needed it. i needed to escape. i need to escape. i need to be able to breathe. i was going to breathe. it was postponed to friday for a stupid reason. everything went down. my energy. my mood. everything. i’m so sad. it’s so silly and stupid and it shouldn’t affect me this much. i’m still going? i don’t get it. i’m just so sad. i needed this time so bad. i needed it as soon as possible. i need to breathe.