help please

Hello everyone and merry xmas

I seriously need some help.

Im feeling like Im loosing my control of my life and my thoughts/mind.

I feel anxious beeing in my head all day and cant escape from it.

I have so much pain inside of my heart and soul and even my body starts to hurt.

I have no one to talk to.

Im going through the worst heartbreak of my life and i feel like im dying. Its been a year and still Im suffering, I will see a psychiatrist at the end of january but i dont know how i will survive ..