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emotionalGrapefruit1987
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Advice needed
Relationship Stress / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 October 28th, 2023
...See more Im seeing a guy for 9 days.  went on dates for 3times now... last night we tried to watch a movie but we kept talking so we gave up and just talked until 2 am.  Today he said yeah couldnt really focus on the movie because i was lost in your eyes and i said mh okay so whats my eye colour then ? and he said brown.... my eyes are very greeny... Do you think its a big deal ? because i feel very dissapointed.. last sunday we drove to another city and spent nearly 12h together.. like how couldnt he recognized it ? I ask one of my friends, who i dont know for so long and she said brown aswell but well she is not romantically intrested in me ... its different! please guys tell me, am i overreacting ?
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Narcisstic Abuse! Help
Relationship Stress / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 August 12th, 2023
...See more I need help everyone. I was in an online situationship for over 2 years during covid. After the restrictions i went to visit him in a different country. It was a nightmare, he is addicted to alcohol and i felt very unsafe with him, he mentally and verbally abused me and stalked me.. last year i finally had the strenght to leave it and he found a new supply. There are so much details to tell to tell you guys how sick he is... but I need to get back to the point. He came back a month ago and told me that his new gf is perfect and he has great respect fot her and how he did all the tnihgs for her that he couldnt do for me.. but the problem is he doesnt love her.. He still loves me. Well somehow and i feel very very ashamed he got me back in his toxic love. He lied and told me he finished with her but turned out it was alie... now he turns it against me and says things like he choose the wrong person to love, she is the better woman and that she could do the things that i couldnt and so on. Those words hurt me deeply in my soul because of my childhood and he knows it. he knows exactly what to say. but I cant get out of it... i need to prove that im the better woman even that i know its a endless run without destination... and when i block him he will stalk me on any other social media accounts and write me bad and evil messages and even create thousands of fake accounts like before. Im scared! and i need help who is familiar with this topic. Since he is back in my life, im feeling tired, im late at work, not intrested to see friends etc. He is like a vampire who sucks the life out of me. Please help me
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help please
Depression Support / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 December 26th, 2022
...See more Hello everyone and merry xmas I seriously need some help. Im feeling like Im loosing my control of my life and my thoughts/mind. I feel anxious beeing in my head all day and cant escape from it. I have so much pain inside of my heart and soul and even my body starts to hurt. I have no one to talk to. Im going through the worst heartbreak of my life and i feel like im dying. Its been a year and still Im suffering, I will see a psychiatrist at the end of january but i dont know how i will survive ..
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Married to the wrong person (men required)
Relationship Stress / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 December 19th, 2022
...See more Hey I would like to talk to men who married a woman they dont love. And still thinking about their true big love from the past. Please contact me, I need to talk to you for my own experience and healing. I appreciate if you can tell me your story ...
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I really need someone to talk to!!!!!!
General Support / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 November 19th, 2022
...See more Hello, so far i wasnt very lucky to find a good listener who really wants to listen and might even give advice or even their opinion. Most of them dont apply back or are no really empathic with me and my situation. Its hard to keep writing about your history/problem and take the time and at the end it was for nothing. So if there is anyone, who is free to listen and has the patient and empathy then please contact me. Because today is a very dark day and i cant get out of my head and feelings and just want to escape from it...
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feeling lonely and lost
Journals & Diaries / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 September 20th, 2022
...See more hey.. my heart is broken, i feel im never good enough for anyone. Always get emotional addicted to a partner and when they leave i feel like k.ill.ing myself. There is this deep deep sadness and hopelessness inside of me and i dont know how to escape.. please help me
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honest opinion ASAP PLEASE
Relationship Stress / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 September 10th, 2022
...See more So my ex and I are communicating via spotify, been 7 years together. last year it ended and there was never closure.. and the songs he has on the playlist are like coldplay - fix you, nothing compares to you, justin bieber ghost etc. but NOW he posted this on spotify: Cap Carter - Guns (Official Live Video) - YouTube Lyric below, how would you intepret this song when you know your ex is expressing or communicate through this. Red tail lights on the highway Hangin' ten on the edge again And how quickly the years fade I barely recognise my own face Honey don't wait up for me I can't do this anymore I'm sorry So let me know how it suits you Everything that we've been though Feels like ghosts in the darkness Spirits swirling in my shot glass Honey I'm struggling to see I can't do this anymore She said baby don't you worry There's a change gonna come Don't you quit on me now You just stick to your guns Baby have no fear I know you've paid your dues There'll be hell to pay But I'll be right there with you Lover tell me how to ease the pain Fill it up with some novocaine I'd be crazy to fake it Yeah I know that's the breaks kid Darlin' let go, let it be I can't do this anymore Is it too late to start up again? Baby I'm convinced that this is Where the story ends You're tellin' we can begin again I know you're trying But I don't think that the heart will mend Love let it be, because I can't do this anymore She said baby don't you worry There's a change gonna come Don't you quit on me now You just stick to your guns Baby have no fear I know you've paid your dues There'll be hell to pay But I'll be right there with you Baby dry your eyes And when the morning comes It'll be alright if you just stick to your guns She said baby don't you worry There's a change gonna come Don't you quit on me now You just stick to your guns Baby have no fear I know you've paid your dues There'll be hell to pay But I'll be right there with you
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I really need advice :( plesase
Relationship Stress / by emotionalGrapefruit1987
Last post
 September 7th, 2022
...See more m 30 years old and my entire 20s I have been in a relationsship with my best friend. I know him since im 3. Our fathers were best friends and went to war together. 2020 we wanted to go to australia for a year, quit our jobs and our apartment, then covid happend. Both had to move back to our parents. We went through very hard times in 2020 and after many fights and hurtful things that happend i ended the relationsship end of 2020. January 2021 my grandfather (who is like a father to me) got diagnosed with cancer. My ex tried very hard to win me back and because i t was my birthday and the situation of my grandfather i let him back in and to be honest i needed that emotional support. But somehow i had that strange feeling to ask him if he has something to tell me about our 7 year relationsship i nedd to know... He told me he cheated on me 4 years ago.... UFFFFF My world once again fell apart... the condition of my grandfather got worse. and i just got a new job after covid.. so i was so overwhelmed with my life. He kept trying to make things work but i turned cold and pushed him away because i didnt wanted to deal with all the emotions. April 2021 my grandfather died. and the whole summer i was alone because i wanted to be alone. I worked came home ate something netflix and very often alcohol to keep me company and distract me with my pain. august / september my ex finally gave up and that woke me up.. I tried to call him drunk but he didnt answer and well.. i said many bad words to him. The next morning he called me 6x but i was asleep, when i called him back he sounded cold and just wanted to make sure that im ok... at the the end he told me that he doesnt know anymore how to fix it and we ended the call. Since then i never heard of him again. December i found out through friends that is dating someone new. Once again my world fell apart. I wrote him a text to never ever contact me again and that he wont have a chance to ever contact me again and blocked him everywhere. the whole year 2022 i hear from our friends that he doesnt love her. that he is unhappy and not feeling good about the situation.So reached out in march to him, told him that i cant make peace with it the way things ended. After 3 days he answered and said that he to think about it and he is still not sure and then told me a day when... I was so dissapointed by this answee that i canceled it and told him that i dont need this conversation anymore. last week they begged me to contact him once again .. because after one year we both feel lost without each other and say that Im his love of his life but too afraid to reach out and waiting for signs blabla I cant sleep anymore, i dream of him every night.. i still cant make peace with it. im deeply hurt yesterday after a phone call with our best friend, she told me that he waiting for a sign like texting him again ... and that he sent a prayer request to the church for knowing who is the woman god wants him to be with .. and i just felt hurt that he is unsure about me, its probably my ego talking again but oh well please i need some couple of advices or at least some people who can give their opinion about it
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