im so overwhelmed
A lot has happened in my life lately and i’m very overwhelmed. My boyfriend broke up with me and said he didn’t love me and it was like my whole world fell apart. I don’t really have any other close friends who can support me so i’m all alone. I loved him more than anyone i’ve ever loved. I had a really bad depressive episode last year and I think he saved my life and now he doesn’t love me anymore. He said we could stay friends but I feel like he’s avoiding me and I just miss him so much. I love him more than anything and he left me all alone.
Schools stressing me out so much. I don’t have many friends and the ones I do, don’t talk to me much. I eat alone at lunch every day and I think everyone just dislikes me. My math grade is a 82 and my parents get mad at me if my grades aren’t above 85. I’m finally getting a 504 (basically disability accommodations like extended testing time) to help me with my anxiety disorder but my dad is upset about it. He thinks I don’t need it and i’m worried he’s right and i’m just faking this. Im in a musical at school but I hate the director and the whole time im just jealous and upset. I feel like such a bad person and a failure.
At home I constantly feel bad for not exercising. my parents require me to do sports but I finally convinced them to stop and now I do the musical. I have anorexia but it’s gotten a lot better. I feel really worried though now that i’m not excersizing and i’m eating so much. Some food makes me have a really stuffy nose and that freaks me out too because what if the food is like making me sick and i’m being terrible and eating poorly. I hate exercise though. It makes me feel so gross and big. It makes my gender dysphoria terrible too. My parents make me go to bed at 9 on school nights and put my phone downstairs. I feel so anxious at night when I can’t fall asleep because I don’t want to do bad in school. I feel so much better when my phone is there.
School starts again tommorow after break and i’m freaking out. i’m so anxious. I have tests I need to make up and math I need to learn and it’s all so much. I just don’t see a point in everything. I just feel so lost and hopeless. My whole life is falling apart and i’m just so exhausted. I wish I could just be happy. Just for reference, I am 16 and live in the united states.
@dandelioncorvid Hey, I hope you made it through the school week okay. I relate to you so hard on the losing the love of someone who saved you and having anorexia. When you feel betrayed and lost, it's best to try to take care of yourself first. You still deserve love, even if that person isn't going to give it to you. I don't think you should assume that everyone dislikes you- try to come at it from a more neutral angle that everyone is just caught up in their own businesses because being a teenager is hard. You might not feel like it, but you are still very young- there will be opportunties for so many changing and new relationships in the future. Hang in there. Your world will get so much bigger after high school. Your parents aren't doing you many favors with how they are acting. Math can be a really hard subject, so even if they frown about an 82, I want you to mentally distance yourself from them and give yourself a pat on the back- that's still a good grade and you are doing your best. You deserve the accomdations you sought out and don't you dare let your dad make you feel bad for taking them. If they are going to help you, why wouldn't you want them? Even if you feel like you are faking, try to own it- like 'haha! look at me! i'm gaming the system and no one can stop me!' I don't know why in the world your parents would push sports if they know you have anorexia. That sounds really irresponsible of them. If you can't have your phone at night, try to find other things- ipod, get an old cd player and take out cds from the library to play quietly, journal, read comics/manga from library (might be a better choice than books if the anxiety makes it hard to focus), get or make a simple fidget toy, find cloth/blanket you like the texture of and try to get lost in the sensation.
Hi there,
Thank you for reaching out and sharing everything you’re going through. It takes a lot of courage to open up like this, and I want you to know that you’re not alone in feeling this way. Let’s take it one step at a time.
It sounds like you’re facing a lot of challenges all at once, and it’s completely understandable to feel overwhelmed. Losing someone you deeply care about, like your boyfriend, can feel devastating. It’s okay to grieve the relationship and the connection you had. Even though it might not feel like it now, healing takes time, and it’s okay to feel all the emotions that come with it.
School stress and pressure from parents can be incredibly hard to handle, especially when you’re also managing anxiety and other personal struggles. The fact that you’re getting a 504 plan shows that you’re taking steps to support yourself, which is so important. Anxiety is very real, and having accommodations doesn’t mean you’re faking anything—it means you’re being proactive about your well-being.
You mentioned that you’re in a musical, which is an incredible creative outlet. It’s okay to feel frustrated with the process or to compare yourself to others—it’s a natural response. Try to remind yourself that your journey and contributions are unique and valuable.
It’s wonderful to hear that your anorexia has improved, but I understand how difficult it can be to navigate food, exercise, and body image. Be gentle with yourself. Recovery is a journey, and it’s okay to have days when things feel harder.
You’re handling so much right now, and it’s normal to feel exhausted. If you can, try to find a trusted adult—like a school counselor, teacher, or another supportive figure—to talk to about everything you’re experiencing. They can help you create a plan to manage the stress and connect you with resources for additional support.
Most importantly, please remember that you are not a failure. You’re doing your best in very challenging circumstances, and that’s something to be proud of. Even though it might not feel like it, brighter days are ahead. You are worthy of love, care, and happiness.
If you ever feel like things are too overwhelming, please don’t hesitate to reach out to a crisis hotline or a trusted support network. You don’t have to go through this alone.
I’m here to listen and support you in any way I can.