i need help.

hello. i’m sorry if im dragging u down while u read this post. i just need help and i don’t know where to get it.

i’m tired of feeling the way i feel. just so tired of life u know? never really knowing if im okay. always drained. always tired. sometimes empty. sometimes sad. mostly never really knowing how i feel. i need help but the profesional kind is not really an option for me. i haven’t told my parents. idk if im capable of telling them. they won’t understand. but i desperately need the confirmation that i have depression. that i’m not crazy. that they believe me.

anyway, i wanted to ask for help on how to work through this without professional help? i don’t believe in it getting better-it never has never will. but please if anyone has any tips? how do i deal with this without losing my mind? i feel like ive lost myself in this.