lonely cuz it’s hard here….
After going through stuff alone n trying to fight to defend ur place here, it still comes off as rather pointless n I’m either in totally anger n injustice from all this how they do as they please without hearing me out or completely drained in trying to find my “way” out again since ur just exhausted from whats going on here….
I don’t feel like ever being in normal fam again…it’s rly awful plus I had just hard night n time ppl….
My distant relatives also don’t fight for me nor I ever got anything out of the heartfelt letters I brought them…. I always explained how it’s rly here…. But none of them seems to care or take it serious..
They have their stuff going on assuming I can just always “handle” it here.
It’s mentally taxing n unfair but not everyone will understand since their atmosphere is not like this. I’m so tired of being stepped over here yk… I feel like I don’t deserve to deal w this forever but end likely won’t come to this either.
Totally stuck. Hard not to feel “helpless”..
But then u ask, for how long…
@livbinny do you think you will ever be in a position to leave home??
Good question, painful question, cruel question.
well my fam already assumes I won’t….
it would work if I like yk, find someone cuz I wish there was just soul that would be like oh I’ll bring u in live w us…
not impossible either…
but the possibility also greatly sucks there…
to leave is rather in the “stars”
@livbinny I'm disabled and I live in a carehome, cause I wasn't safe where I was. Is there anything like that around you?
I understand. Always better to be safe. I also already “moved” once bcs of same issue…. But regarding this,
Unfortunately not. All I can think of is senior house. Or kindergarten…. I think I should find out more info since I’m very unsure if our country has something like that… but I doubt it would be far from here🥺
@livbinny I hope you can get away to somewhere safe, where you can live happily ❤ I've been keeping you in my prayers ❤
