why monophobia
why do i feel lonely even when surrounded by people. in a crowd. at work. with family.
maybe its because i feel no one gets me. maybe because i dont have friends irl. maybe because i crave social/physical affection. maybe because ive been alone for so long.
watcher looking outside. i feel like an alien among my kind. we dont talk the same, act the same, or look the same. im just a scattered jigsaw of a person and no one fits that bill. everyone is built, maybe almost complete. and i cant even tell the corner from middle pieces. im already 25 and i feels like my life never started. ive been battling in the dark waiting for sunlight in my tomb, but the clouds are too thick for me to feel anything.
and i wonder how long itll be like this, and if ill ever make a change, and how long i can hold on for.
@Hijinx02
You could start small here.
Getting to know people.
Introducing yourself.
Popping into the MCR room.
The support room.
Or a sharing circle.
You'd be most welcome 💛
@Hijinx02 your longing for closeness is truly beautiful. It tells something beautiful about you too. There is someone worthy of being discovered. Piece by piece, if needed.
It sounds you feel really lonely and incomplete. You just showed up here now. It sounds like a step to becoming more known and maybe figuring out things about yourself too 🌸
Would you like to share about some one thing that you like?
I like cartoons/animated series, digital art, plushies, dinosaurs, memes, rock music, and alt fashion.
@Hijinx02
🆒 cool!
What makes you think that your puzzle is at a level of just a single piece? Those already sound like several colorful pieces 😊
@pinkCherry1616 Huh...?
@Hijinx02 oh, my bad. You didn’t say in your message that your life is just like single piece of puzzle. You said that the pieces are not coming together… hmm, the things you named as ones you like seem to build something colorful and interesting… so you have more thoughts?
I totally understand where you’re coming from. You aren’t alone. I hope things look up for you soon and best of luck!