Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I want to follow through x/ but I also want to get help and go to y he hospital but I don't want to be with the adults cuz I just turned 18

My day stared amazing and ended poorly. I'm learning what my triggers are and how to avoid or overcome them. The first step is finding out the problem that is overlooked and leads to other problems.

I want to hope for a brighter future but I feel like it's only gonna get worse

Tired, but at least I went out to buy my favorite old comic books :)

Alone, I have many ppl around me I feel I can only count on me. That I'm the only on in this world. Its like everyone I have would care if I'm here or not. I feel like the Everything is closing in on me. I feel lost don't know I am in my life.

How do I feel? Thats a good question actually, because, my mind is in over drive every single day, thinking of irrelevant things, things that would make people question if I were sane. But "how am I feeling today" never crosses my mind. Today I feel like I can not see the end, I am blinded and their is no end in sight. Hopefully this will change, someday..

I feel... Stressed, full of anxiety, panicky, paranoid, and I feel like crying. I feel... Heavy, numb, slow, and I feel very detached. This is all I've been feeling for a long time and I'm desperate to feel better..

Drained of all energy..just want to sleep forever

Emotional. Like I messed up really badly. Like I don't belong anymore even though I know I'm appreciated by so many. I just can't handle anything anymore. I'm getting worse by the day and don't see myself ever getting better.

Actually. Today was one of the best days of my life so far.