Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Lost. Like I don't know what to think or how to feel, but I don't have a reason to feel this way.

Extraordinarilly sad, but in control. I managed to get some things done and to put on a happy face.

my depression has only seemed to be getting worse. more bad days than good ones.

lost and harmful. I don't want to bring others down with me.

I'm actually feeling kind of manic. After 2 weeks of depression I feel almost hyper. I'm restless and I agitated, however, there's still this lingering sadness. How do I level out?

I feel like a failure at life. Like my life will never get any better..

I'm tired, the kind of tired that sleep can not fix. I do not find joy anymore. Food used to be a comfort and now it's a hindrance. It causes more pain than comfort. I do not have any outside social interactions except for on my phone and my Bear says I'm pushing him away by being on my phone too much. Because of health issues I sleep alone, I'm emotionally & sexually starving! I am stuck at home. I have no life. I cook and clean and eat. Everyday same thing. My highlight is getting to leave the house even if is to grocery shop and pay bills. I suffer through everyday... Wanting the day to end so I can escape the pain and go back to sleep, if I can sleep. Everyday I want it to end quickly, not to get to the next day but to escape reality.

I'm just so tired... I just want to quit. I'm 468lbs of i'm broken life.

Like a failure. Nothing works.

I've tried my hardest to make myself happy and being successful to not avail. The world seems to go against me but no one notices. I write poetry to help but someone can see the true ink pouring out of my eyes before them. I know I have it better than many people around the world, but we all have problems. So,é times, it seems that not all of us are fixable. Sometimes I want to all just to end, but my friends are what pushes me, without them,....Imdomt know where I could be...

Sad cry all Day nothing does interest me

I feel like 7 years of on and off employment (mostly off) have left me unable to appreciate finally getting a job, even if I enjoy it. It's like, this doesn't really matter big-picture-wise. Jobs seem trivial and hold none of the anxiety they did when I was desperate for one. Now it's just "Whatever, this one won't last either."

Sad, really looking for hope and positivity in the future but can't seem to see the light.