Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I hate myself, I hate my life, I hate my mother, I'm sick of this life

I hate myself, I hate my life, I hate my mother, I'm sick of this life

I feel like I don't know how to put how I feel into words.

I'm tired of being in abusive relationship. I'm stuck.

Felt trapped inside of my own head with no energy to ever leave my bead. Didn'teven have the confindence to eat something.

I just feel like screaming is so fucking worse is I feel like the person who tells me everyday that he loves me really doesn't. I feel used I feel like I'm annoying I feel like I'm wasting my time I feel like I can't do better so stressed out I have no one to talk to no friends and when I was trying to hang out with some money they turned me down two different people did I just have to find a person who will listen to me and it will never make me feel worthless someone who would fight for me no matter what happened.

I hate my school, I hate my parents, and im about to fail when I have 6 weeks left in my senior year. They told me this was supposed to be the best time of my life, but they lied. i have no one to go to, so why even stay here...

I don't want to exist anymore I feel like I have no reason to be here now.

I found out my ex is having issues with the guy she's talking to. He's taking her for granted and she's hurting over that. I want the best for her and I'm trying to comfort her. It hurts to know that I truly appreciate her and love her like no one else. Yet, she's losing sleep over an asshole while I'm here losing sleep over her.

I feel trapped in my life. I don't have anyone to talk to that would understand or would care. The time I tried to talk about depression with my friends they laughed in my face and I'm too scared to try again.