Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I am a tad depressed, a girl I like and hold very dear can't make up her mind what she wants, even though we both know how we feel about each other and made few important promises, which obviously to her don't mean much as to me, or am I just too self-centered and hypocrite? - Nah, that's rhetorical question, other people have told me opposite...Man, do I wish it that was the case.
Then there is this University switching I decided, so I could finish master's course (post-graduate), in the University with more benefits, better reputation and opportunities... Seemed like good idea at the time, I still think it is but I have doubts, unreasonable doubts.
And then there is family issues which last for well over a year now and there so no sight of end to them, they just put additional strain to mine already overly stressed state..
@Steefy
Hi, do you think maybe she's afraid to say what she feels to you because maybe she REALLY doesn't know how you actually feel about her. And the promises, perhaps she's afraid you won't follow through. Just looking at it from another side. I really don't know your relationship. Maybe just sit and talk seriously with her. Good luck, I hope it works out
Every time I think about my financial situation I want to die.
That's how I feel right now.
I just had to make yet another student loan payment. I wanted to use the last of my money for another psychiatrist appointment but I guess that's not happening. 2bad4me
@LaaLa I am sorry to hear you are having financial issues. Sometimes there are ways to default on your loans
@Jamie0906 I think you mean deferment. Defaulting on a loan means you need to pay the full sum immediately - it's the last thing I want to do. I already got a 6 month deferment for three of my loans, but the fourth one got rejected for deferment. But yes, it sucks
I felt okay today. Until a little bit ago. Then I felt like I was unimportant. I know she loves me, but it doesn't feel that way right now.
@TheInfiniteSea - I'm really sorry to hear that - I know it may be hard for you right now as it sounds like you're having to go through a lot.. please know that we're all here to support you, so please feel free to connect to us at anytime, and we'll happily listen
I hope things start to get better soon, and thankyou for sharing this with us all, hang in there<3
I feel scared because for the past few month I have felt sad tired and alone. I'm really scared that this means depression. I've been having really dark thoughts too and I feel so stupid for thinking them.
@HavaLynn - I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling so scared - it sounds like things feel quite unclear and uncertain lately
Please don't feel stupid for thinking and feeling this way, because it's definitely far from stupid! Thankyou so much for posting this - please feel free to connect to any of the amazing listeners here, or join group chats, look at self help chats.. just anything that may be helpful, I really hope things start to get better for you soon - please know that I believe in you!
@Nicola2468 thank you
Just numb as usual
@plummaple9898 - I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling numb.. but I really do appreicate you posting this and for staying here Please feel free to use 7cups as much as possible to maybe help.. perhaps by talking about how you feel with someone, or reading up information about your situation, or merely just seeking a friend for support.. just please know we're all here for you if you ever need us, I wish you all the best
Today, I feel...stressed, frustrated and just like I want to cry and scream at the same time. I didn't want to do anything today but I ended up going out with my sisters and my mum to get coffee. I love coffee and it usually improves my mood. But not today.
I snapped at my brother. I shouted at him, actually shouted. I said sorry, but he said that if I was sorry I wouldn't have shouted at him. But he just doesn't understand that everything and anything can make me snap. I am sorry, I hate myself for yelling at him.
I want to write something. But I know that anything I write will be extremely depressing. I have thoughts to write, I have ideas, but...I know it'll turn out just...depressing. I have the motivation, but it's not going to last long.
I just want to scream!
I'm emotionally exhausted by the last 24 hours. I've beaten myself up over & over about a mistake. A full blown panic attack & a day of ruminating about why I am not worthy of love. Followed by episodes of crying and feeling isolation is the key and my demise.
@gregariousTangerine6100
hi...I also always beat myself about the things I've done wrong. Here's one small thing you've done right - connect with others who can understand a little of what ur going thru...
I honestly don't feel very good. During the end of the year and over the summer, I thought my depression had gone. But with the first week of school, along with major social and generalized anxiety, I feel sad. I feel like every move I make is filled with doubt and sadness. I don't know what to do. All I want to do is stay home and sleep. I also haven't been eating, my stomach has felt so nervous.
@GollomGirl145
It's normal when life makes major steps for you to want to pull back. For me with depression and anxiety, I find two things work well. I give myself micro jobs like put my feet in my slippers and ridiculous as it may sound I heavily congratulate myself for that...before one knows it one has done 20 microthings for the day. Also tell someone you trust you're not eating so well...maybe they cut up some fruit and leave it by your bed?
@GollomGirl145
i understand girl, but hey don't forget this is just temporary a bright new days are about to find you,
PM me if you feel like takking to someone, you got me! :)
I'm still getting worse despite my efforts.
@ThomasHs
STAY STRONG :)
@enchantingvision94 I'm running out of things to try.
@ThomasHs
I understand at times things are difficult, but hey comeon! we are all here for you, you got me.
you can talk to me anytime you want to. PM me we sure will figure a best way to bring happiness to your life :)
@ThomasHs
I know depression is a weight on your shoulders and is such a difficult thing to overcome, but every effort you make is a step in the right direction. I am so proud of you for fighting back, even though it seems like things are getting worse. It's ok if you have to take a step back before moving forward again. We are all here cheering you on and will always support you no matter what.
Lost and alone!
@ChasingMyDreams5
hi...you're not lost and you're not alone, would you like to tell me about it? I'm Liz, I'm 43y, married from Pretoria. I have been battling anxiety my whole life but had a Major depressive episode after the death of my dad 6 years ago. I battle to go through the motions day after day but there are things that make it worth it like my kids, my pets.
@Lizdoc
thanks for the message and sharing your story. Sorry about the loss of your dad.
I just have been very down lately mainly because I feel alone in every way...family...friends...intimacy. Like I have no one to talk to and or turn too. Today I was 7 hours late for work. I feel bad because I lied to my staff and said I was at a meeting all day but in all reality I was at home in the bed because I could not get out the bed. Lying and being late to work did not make me feel good at all. But having those extra 7 hours to think/reflect, relax my body and heart and speak with my counselor made me feel so much more relax. I needed it, I was so anxious, and overwhelmed and just did not have any motivation. I was mentally not in any shape to be at work. I have been being very late to work for like 3 weeks now because of depression and anxiety. I am afraid I am going to lose my job. I just hope my energy level and happiness gets better so I am able to get out of the bed and get to work on time.
@Lizdoc pm me you sound like you may be able to listen
@ChasingMyDreams5 Please don't feel as if you're on your own! We're all here to listen and support you. We care about you and your happiness!
