Going through the motions
Today was my second day back and school, and I feel like I'm just going through the motions. During the summer I have this amazing friend who I do sell kinda of fun stuff with. Every summer I feel like oh e finally come out of my shell, an d then when school starts again my anxiety seems to take over. I've come close to having a panic attack nearly four times already, and people don't understand. They're like, "why wont you do this with me?" And I can't even explain that my anxiety won't let me. My really great friend goes to a different school, so I never see her which is why I think I have so much anxiety at school. Most years I usually get over it within a few weeks, but this year or feels much worse. This summer I started writing music on my ukulele, and it was really fun, but now it doesn't seem fun, but it feels stressful. I feel like I'm obligated to write music even though nobody really knows that I write. I used to love school too, but then last year I had a breakdown and realized I was too stressed about it. This year it seems like it doesn't even matter that much, which males it feel like I'm just doing pointless things. I just wanna ask, why?
Anxiety is cumulative and can also come from stressful life events which cause the anxiety to seemingly spring up during unrelated things if it's not dealt with in healthy ways. Sometimes it's not immediately clear all of it's causes but one way to ease it and to learn to deal with the stressors more effectively can be found in both mindfulness and help guides sections of 7cups. There's a panic attack specific audio track in the mindfulness and a guide that applies to that specifically too. Hope your school days become easier and that you may meet more understanding people or that the ones you do know learn more about it without having to go through it themselves. <3 I'm trying to be more social too and the mindfulness is helping me.
I hope that things get better for you.
