One thing I am feeling sad about today is...
I am a stupid to be exploited.
My mother manipulated and hurt me, again. I've lost count of all the times and ways she's done this before... And I just keep kicking myself for not being able to let go of her. I just want a mom so badly, and she wants no part of me or my life.
The one thing that I
I am struggling with my depression and anxiety, still being hit with the waves of grief when I am alone in bed when I am trying to go to bed or first thing when I awaken. I am also struggling with my physical pain from my spinal condition. I am starting to dislike my job which I have been doing for 4 years. It is extremely repetitive and as I work on the phone helping members of AAA when they call for Emergency Roadside Service. There is never a good time to break down and some people are not the friendliest even in the best of situations when they are calling for help.
I know I should feel grateful to have a job that has benefits and pays pretty well and allows me to perform with my physical limitations. It is just a lot of pressure at times as I am under the microscope being recorded at all times and randomly given quality assurance reviews at anytime 8 times a month. The QA metrics are not forgiving and as empathetic and hard as I work to hit my expected marks I often feel a lot of anxiety and pressure. There just a lot going on in my head and I am really having a hard time feeling like I am ok. I miss my parents so much, they always had an open ear and knew how to help me with my issues. I am so alone now with nobody to talk to about my problems accept 7 Cups and when I pay to talk to a therapist.
@bgdave I am really sorry for your situation but most important step you have taken is that you are ready to share how you feel and I am sure the 7 cup family will not disappoint you.
Remember we are here for you.
@WeAllAreSame
Thank you for your kindness, I feel so emotionally weak at the moment as hard as I try to be stoic on a functional level. My spirit feels so weak trying to put one foot in front of the other. I am struggling so badly today with my depression and physical pain I just woke up and am fighting emotionally to even go to work so I can keep my job.
Today i have received the biggest, most terrible blow in my whole life that I think will be the end of me...i'm in a state of shock...
@lazyKatz
Do you want to talk about it?
@lazyKatz i'm confused and in shock...i wish either one of us were a listener, i can't formulate at the moment, need a few minutes...
Knowing Ill be very likely spending the weekend and my birthday at Knotts alone, like it usually is for me anywhere else :(
Its never a good time and I know full well ASD, Anxiety and Depression are a triad of repellent :( That and Im pretty much still getting my comeuppance/bell ringing for every social mistake I have ever made in my life :(
hard to to not take it personally when it always happens and its your fault :(
PAIN
My friend's rude behaviour towards me.
@rosewithtears18
Maybe it was a misunderstanding , its happened to me when I'm feeling ultra sensitive I have in the past over reacted. Not that I'm in anyway saying that is what has happened to you it might be worth a considering the possibility though.
@lazyKatz
I tried to talk to her but she is still misbehaving.. I hope whatever you are saying is right but she has been lately rude to me.
Could she have problems of her own and is also struggling.
