One thing I am feeling sad about today is...
I feel so lost. I'm surrounded by family and friends that love me. But I feel all alone.
@Footballmom
@Flowerbloom91
@Footballmom
i feel the same thing my fam nd friends are really supportive but still idk why I'm always sad , I'm not able to feel happiness now
Im sad my brother didnt know that kindness lives in crickets and all of nature listens... That he felt this world was deaf to him, had no one else to talk to and believed what his thoughts were telling him
#suicideprevention
@BlueWest1995
I'm so, so sorry for your loss and the pain you must hold because of it. I don't know if it's right or helpful to say this, but I wanted you to know that I have been struggling with thoughts of giving up, and your words brought me to tears because they were so beautiful and heartfelt and exactly the words I needed to push through another day. Maybe it feels irrelevant in the midst of your pain, but I wanted you to know that your words do have to the power to strengthen others. But i also want you to know that sometimes words can't work, because we hide ourselves away from those who would try to say them until we become to sick to believe them even if they're said. I love my sister so, so much, and I never want her to feel the pain of my death. But when my depression is most severe, my mind can see only the burden of my existence, and so I talk to her less in my misguided attempt to be less of a stressor in her life. And there was a time I hid myself away such that I couldn't hear the words I know she would have said,. And I think that at the end (or what could have been the end) I had hidden my heart away so long, and become so convinced by the words in my head, that I wouldn't have believed the words anymore. From anyone. She could have done nothing differently. She didn't even know how bad it had gotten. Sometimes the illness wins, and there's nothing anyone could have done. Maybe it's not helpful now, but maybe someday there will be comfort in the fact that since you have the ability to find the perfect words to help me keep breathing today, you can do the same for others who are still able to listen. But...I'm really, really sorry for your pain.
@BlueWest1995
And by the way, I used to talk to crickets when I was a kid. I sang to one once. My cousin had injured him just to taunt me, and I knew he was dying. So I took him to the trees nearby, and lay him on a log, and . I sang a lullaby. I was young, and now I would have wanted to end his suffering more quickly I imagine. But...I think that's why your words got to me. I heard the truth of my sister's love in your love, and I heard that the world wants to listen. I am not alone. There are crickets.Thank you for this.
@BlueWest1995
I've worried that I shouldn't have said so much. I hope I didn't worsen things for you in any way. I'm so, so sorry for your loss
Binge eating. Too much for me.
Being ghosted by best friends aka being silently yet loudly told "you are dead to us", " you're irrelevant".
3 years, still hurts. Feel nothing but shame daily
Not allowed to make amends, to reconcile :( just shunned and ignored as if I committed the worst transgression ever :(
Just treated as if I was a monster, or a criminal.
Being alone. I was off work all week and was so bored. Aside from siblings and nieces and nephews I have nobody in my life. No friends to really speak of. I get so lonely. I want to go on trips to the beach or mountains but dread going alone. I dont know why I cant make and keep real friends.
my mom didn't call me in 5 days
My mom is back on drugs. Can I be honest, I love my mom and hate her at the same time. I try to keep on saying to myself that I forgive her but I know truly in my heart I havent. I think about everything she has done to be every single day. I feel so bitter about life itself. I feel like I try to do as good as possible in life and all I get is this. I think thats why I get angry when people talk about how good god is. When I was going through really bad depression one year everyone was telling me to go to church because god can take the pain away. I went, I got baptized, and it filled my happiness for a little while but then it just left. I tried again in church and I left. Some time recently I tried again and I just left. Idk I guess I just hold some resentment against god because of the pain he allowed others to give me and not help me. I know what will bring me happiness. I just dont know if Ill have acceptance. My dad and my stepmom who is like a mom is getting divorced. So thats on to it. Idk what Id do without an outlet. I want happiness and peace in life but dont know how to get it.
Being alone
My dad never being at my wedding as he has passed away. Ill probably never marry anyways.
Moved to a new country almost exactly one year ago. Still struggling with the language and for someone that used to be an ace student not being able to participate in class normally has absolutely crushed me. It's been a year and I'm still no good at the language. It wouldve been fine if I didnt have national exams to get into a high school in a few months. And if I fail I dont think I can retake them. This is weighing down on my parents as well so I cant talk to them about it. My only friend whom I'm comfortable talking to about these things has had about enough. I always stress about the smallest of things and she even had to bear with me through and eating disorder. Shes fed up. Honestly I dont know what to do at this point.
