One thing I am feeling sad about today is...

I am sad that i wasnt my best today! I am always hard on myself and I just wasnt having a good day.

I have not received my schedule at work, and I need to plan when I can get my therapy.

My family isnt there to support me anymore. I moved back from college because the rent is super expensive in the bay. I decided to move back home. Its been a year since I moved back and Im finally enrolled in a community college to finish my GE units to transfer out. They are cutting my phone and arent really there to support me. I cant keep living with them since they constantly put me down. I feel so alone. All I want is family support and it makes me so depressed that I dont have it.

My audition failure that resulted in me losing the part I was called back for

I feel insecure about my body

not having the courage to end my life. i can't do anything, and i can't get out of anything painful. its like every step i take is weighing me down, but i dont do anything about it.

The fact that I'm feeling down because of my unrequited love. Now I remember why I avoid talking about this specfic topic. The longing feels too much like lead.

What's worse is that I told myself back then not to let this feeling affect me too much. Without realising it, it already did a long time ago. Fucking hell...

Two sophomore girls tried to beat me up today because I made a comment about their friend the other day.

That the future I wanted and who I wanted to spend it with will never be.

That I have hurt a lot of friends in my life albeit inadvertently and I am being treated as if I was a monster because of it. That my (ex) best friend believes that Im a monster even though Im not.

That my buddy Bandit left me too soon.

That I feel I let everyone in my life down constantly.

That no matter what, Ill be spending my life alone, Im too flawed for it to be otherwise.

Me and my biological father have been talking about me moving out of my mom's house because I don't feel safe around my step dad and he's (according to my biological father) emotionally and mentally abusive and I'm mentally ready to move out but I'm terrified. Of my step dad in general and my mom's reaction, even though I know it's in the my best interests.