One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}
Same problem with me everyday, I don
I've been in a 'high' mood for over a week and today it kinda crashed and I really hate that it did. I mean I expected it but it doesn't make it any better. It just leaves me worse off every time it happens and it's tiring.
i wasn't able to go to school today because there are no buses coming around. i had to wait this morning for one hour with my heavy backpack on.
my sister just passed me by when she saw me because we've been in conflict.
being so sensitive all the damn time.
I'm feeling sad because I think my social awkwardness that makes me almost mute in some situations made someone very uncomfortable and leave very fast when all they where trying to do was there job. I get the feeling that in a strange way I scared them off. But I geuss someone staring at you not saying a word would make anyone uncomfortable. I don't like to make people uncomfortable so I'm sad I accidentally did.
I have to get up from bed to this shit job, I have to continue the same cycle of fasting and torture, I have to do my daily routine to please my parents, to get them off my back, and it's becoming so difficult to work up the motivation to get up from bed. The most simplest thing is now the hardest part of the day. I can't even cry about it, the tears are jammed in my sockets.
@TylerXDurden I really relate to this, especially the part about holding back tears. It's positively awful. I personally taught myself to not cry because, whenever I cried, I got punished for it. From idiots mocking me and calling me weak, to my parents threatening me to stop crying or they'd give me a reason to cry.
@OutdatedOatmeal I feel you. When I cry, it's disgusting uncontrollable gasps of air, sobbing, cheeks become flushed with red color, then my voice trembles with a high bitchy tone. It's humiliating, embarrassing. Ironic how the times I actually do "cry" is when someone says the magic words to trigger the last screw to fall out. I never cry like that when I really want to, when I'm alone and the setting is well. Always when I'm fuckin exposed in front of people, posed as an attention seeker, a weakling, a burden that should take his whiny ass somewhere else across the galaxy. When I cry alone, force it out, beating myself up, it's just tears running down my face. Emotionless. Wished it was in reverse.
The feeling of hopelessness, and being a burden to everyone.
being alone
I'm feeling sad about everything in my life. Mainly today that I realize I don't really have anybody actually in my life anymore. The one person who was here is on the way out and I shouldn't cling to him anymore. I don't know why an old friend isn't talking to me anymore, I asked her, and two mutual friends and none have told me why. I feel like I'm in the twilight zone, like I literally don't exist. Now my bulimia is coming back as I don't know how to cope with such deep loneliness. I'm not a bad person I don't think I deserve to be lonely. Yes I make mistakes but I'm still loving and caring.
feeling like a failure and a disappointment. letting people down - my parents, teachers, friends, myself. feeling worthless and alone.
I feel my husband don't love me and blames me for everything and tell my i did things in his head i do everything i can for him i still get the worst part out of it I don't know what to do these days i just lost my mom and he was not there he was not on my side i been there for his but so there for and i feel empty
