One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}

I felt sad waking up this morning because I don

i feel like my friends and my boyfriend dont actually like me that much even though i have no reason to think that i just feel like im apart from everyone

I drank too much last night, again.

I felt depressed today because I felt like my best friend secretly hates me and doesn't want to hang out with me anymore because he hung out more and said more to his other friends today. I know it's stupid but tiny things like these kinda trigger my feelings of self-hatred and suicidiality. The reason behind that is kind of a long story, but I'm ok :)

How difficult it is to genuinely connect. How real the risk of hurt when we lower our guard. The small slivers of good in us compared to all that is lacking. How difficult it is to gain any truth and how easy to be taken in by lies.

I'm a white male, I'm not impoverished (obviously, I have access to the internet), but I feel like a waste of time, money, and carbon. Someone great could have been born, someone who could accomplish great things, yet instead here I am. Existing. Living. I'm sad that I exist, rather than anyone else in my place.

The fact that my husband totally ignored me when he was having a conversation with an old friend who was hitting on him the entire conversation.

Is that i have to stay with my mentally ill mom and my dad wont let me stay with him.

Is when...Im feeling sad that I have to wake up everyday day and wish I was dead because Im so alone and isolated.

that I feel like I'm not important to my best friend anymore and like he has found better friends