One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}
Memories from the past make me sad, it was a little troubling.
My birthday is coming up. Most people would think of this as a happy occasion, and it kind of is for me, but it's also a really hard day for me. I share a birthday with my Nanna, who died on November 5, 2012 after fighting a 4 year battle with breast cancer that ultimately spread to her spinal cord and brain. She was the grandparent I was closest to, and it was so hard to see her struggle and be in pain all the time.
Every year since she died I cry on my birthday, because we would always celebrate together no matter what and she's gone, she's not here anymore. After she died my Poppa became distant and bitter and depressed and he moved all the way across the country, rarely answering or returning phone calls and emails. So in a sense I lost two grandparents when my Nanna died.
For some reason this birthday seems to be hitting harder than others, and I just feel so lonely and hopeless and all I want to do is curl up in a blanket with my cats and dogs and cry til I pass out.
@artsylulu I feel you.. but you could try and go out on your birthday.. do something you haven't done before with your nanna and make a new tradition.. I know it can be hard but if you make a new tradition then you're not stuck in the old one
I can't help but to compare myself to people who are better in some ways than I am, and to wonder if I'm good enough for others. What makes me so special, to hang around these amazing people? Sometimes I just feel as if I'm rather hopeless to ever be on their level. I can't help but think that there are things I do which are wrong, and no one bothers to tell me, and it makes we worry that I'll never be able to be better, and maybe I'll lose people I care about because of it.
@exuberantLemon7371 I understand , but you have to realise that everyone is special in their own way, I am sure you are in some ways better in some things you enjoy , focus on what makes you happy and work on it. Also everyone can learn from everything, so instead of comparing try learning and ofcourse teaching:) Small steps each time, don't be hard on yourself !
I was used as "ex with benefits" I don't like that set up, but all along that was actually the set up. I felt so used.
I had what I thought was a very good friendship end recently. I don't know why my friend became so angry that she said "Never talk to me again." I really miss my friend and wish that I could talk with her today.
me too @JacobMelon4738
I did not perform well on my math exam even though I worked really hard for it. All my friends have done good. I wouldn't really be this sad about it but my mother thinks I'm worthless and that I'll never be able to do anything in my life. I feel useless and really bad. But the thing is I work hard I work very hard and I always remember the answers to the questions but I always panic and my hands start shaking and I start sweating. I think I have anxiety. I tried telling my mum about it but she thinks I'm making excuses. I haven't been able to do anything since my exam. I don't feel like getting out of bed or going out or anything. I feel really low and ashamed.
I don't trust anymore, I've developed social anxiety, stage freight, and I have night terrors of people laughing behind my back or cheating on me or plotting to harm me. I'm tired. I can't even sleep because I'm being betrayed in my sleep as well.
@Idec123 i can relate that to you. :(
@Idec123 I feel you.
The repetitive cycle of disappointment and not enough positivity to get by. 😞 I hope for good but always end up anticipating for a disappointment since that's the kind of cycle I am in.
That I can't talk to anyone in person
My therapy pet has lost use of his two back legs and it makes me cry seeing how much hes struggling
