One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}

Still sad I got rejected.

It seemed like every day there is something to be sad about. Today I am sad because I feel useless and unmotivated, I like to waste my time doing nothing. I hate myself for that.

Today I am sad because I feel like no one truly cares about me. I feel like people take me for granted at times because I'm free and available most of the time.

One friend rescheduled plans with me that were already made in advance to go out with their SO on that day instead. I do get that their SO should be the most important person in their life, but couldn't they make plans for another day instead since I already have plans with the friend on that particular day?

Another friend is also one that I try my best to always be there for, but I do not feel the same coming from them at times. I'm aware that they're going through a rough patch of their own at the moment as well though, and thus don't really expect them to be here for me at the moment.

Sigh idk. It sucks to feel like your friends don't seem to value you as much as you value them sometimes.

Why am I sad? That seems difficult to answer because as this point every small thing leaves me completely despondent. I feel as though I have no one who sees the world from the same point of view as I do. I've alienated myself from my friends, I rarely go out because I'm so uncomfortable with myself and around others, and I have absolutely no idea what I should do with my life. And while I am severely depressed, I know that death isn't really what I want. It's too finite. What I really want is to not be me. I want a new life with new possibilites.

Umm feeling sad about the shooting

That my apathy has contuniued.

I no longer want to be friends with this guy anymore. We've known each other for four years and he recently rejected me as a romantic partner. Don't think I can deal with being "just friends". I tried that and I ended up getting feelings again.

I won't have a space so much this weekend

Many things. Prob lack of initiative and lots of hesitation

One thing I am feeling sad about today is making an unwise decision when I was lonely and mad and regret it afterwards.