One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}

Rant warning!

Like most people, I have good days and bad days, and this is one of the really bad days.

I just feel empty. I'm bored. I've been writing this thing for months and months now, this screenplay. I put my heart and soul into it, and I finished it yesterday. I don't know what to do now. I tried to fill the void with groups like my school's GSA, but we only meet twice a week. The only other group I have is chorus, and everyone there hates everyone else, but pretends to like them and shit-talk them behind their back. What are they saying about me?

I know I'm going to wake up tomorrow and feel fine and have a good day, but that's not what matters. What matters is one day I might have enough of a bad day that I'll just snap. So I'm basically writing this message to my "good day" self. "Get help, you depressed piece of shit."

TL:DR: I hate myself, sometimes.

One thing I am feeling sad about today is Being broken up with after finally confiding my feelings in a close friend. Being left for another friend of mine that my supposed loving boyfriend had met 3 days before.. Being promised I was so special and this was the beginning of something great. Being told by the friend that this new guy in my life better treat me right or there'd be hell to pay. Ha.

It turns out that I can't trust someone at work who I thought I could trust. Blindsided and disappointed today, in addition to the regular daily feelings of sadness.

Sad today because I keep filling the void and emptiness I feel with more material things. Problem is, they can never love me back.

I miss my friend a whole lot today(she passed away last year).

That I will never get out of this infinite loop of plumeting to the bottom. I feel like I will never get over my traumas. I'm afraid of everyone and everything. I feel dead already.

Not have a good relationship with my husband

I made a friend but it didn't last long. We weren't on the same page, and I understand that that person is trying to protect me. It's sad but I respect it and wish that friend well.

I want to commit suicide. does anyone really care?

I am on sick leave from work, enjoying the stressful days. It's making me happier, but sad today as I am hoping I filled out my ei papers proper and it gets approved. The wait for approval is making me sad and scared. 😬😶