One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}

I'm sick of trying to show my boyfriend that he has a sleeping problem and will not wake up with his alarm going off and we miss dinner together or going somewhere special. All i wanted him to say was "okay, i understand, i will work on it to help our relationship" But he kept blaming me for not letting hiim sleep enough when he gets home at 8am and plays video games until 4:00 to rest and does not keep his word to us going out together at 8:00 because he was sleep talking..

So much stress... I can't handle people. Why won't they understand the things that they do ??? My boyfriend is a smartass know it all arrogant person who thinks he is better than everyone else and smarter. I love him but I hate him.

no one seems to really care abou me, i just wish someone cared

I did it for nothing. My home, my family. For nothing. The last 34 years of my life...for nothing. A marriage that's a sham. A job that's a joke. A standing in my community that's laughable. I end up alienating almost everyone I know. I'm in a slow inexorable downward spiral. All I need is a break. One year. That is all I need. One year to decompress and gather my thoughts. I just want to rest. I want a cabin in the woods, miles from the nearest town. I want to be able to sit by a warm fire with a glass of wine in one hand and some cheese and crackers in the other. Snow-capped mountains in the distance. Pine trees, a cold clear stream nearby. Eagles soaring overhead. I have the right to be happy. I HAVE the right! I am not asking for riches or fame, or recognition. All I'm asking is to be left alone. The constant. incessant henpecking by my wife and the crap at work has worn me down to a frazzle. Some days I don't even want to get out of bed. Can't people just leave me the hell alone. I am asking everyone to just leave me the HELL ALONE! The constant everyday bs has got to stop. How much crap can one person take? Where is it written that I have to take x-amount of crap from people?

I made plans to hang out with my best friend today. she spent the day with her boyfriend instead... it wouldve been nice for her to have at least told me. I guess Im sad that Im not worth a text

Is not feeling good enough, getting mad about every little thing t boyfriend says to me.

I feel like a pest. I tried helping a friend and it turned out that the information I had recieved from someone I thought I could trust was completely false. Things were almost really bad, but we resolved everything. I still feel embarrassed and confused. It doesn't help that I cannot shut out my inner critic the last few days. I feel like a pest and a narcisist.

How could have been so young and stupid? I'm a survivor of cancer and now I've messed things up.

sad because i don't think it would be that sad if i just fell asleep and never woke up again. life is worthless i feel worthless i dont think anything good will ever happen again. no point to this suffering and solitude.

Well for one thing...

I looked back on people who were a big part in my lives who left me.. Old friends i guess but i realized that all of them are so much better off when i left the picture. Now, i only have my nf and my best friend. And.. I just know theyll leave too and then id be all by myself..

I am anxious about the family gathering today.people are going to ask me questions that the answers to triggered my depression.I don't want to go but I am scared they will talk bad on me