One word to describe how I feel today is....

Happy 😊

@Laura

desolate. I am lonely. No one wants to be my friend. No one seems to understand me. No one seems to want me around. I am tired of the way so called Christians try to comfort me when they tell me all I need is God and Jesus. What I need is a friend. Not religion. My religion is fine. My mental health is not. My social life is terrible. I have no hope for things getting better. I have no hope that someone will want to marry me let alone be my friend.

Productive

Crap

Depressed worthless

Hurt, sad, and ashamed

Ending up COVID positive really showed me who has proven it, who truly is a friend or best friend,

has also showed who no longer gives a shit and sadly has also showed who wouldn't have given a shit had the virus killed me. :(

2 who I once considered best friends are now in the latter category. I honestly wouldn't be surprised had they celebrated if the virus had taken me 😞

That's how much contempt it seems they have for me and how much they have unforgiven me because of my screw ups 😞

Optimistic

@Laura

anxious

For me, Meepy. This was supposed to be a nice day. It's a short work shift and I get to get peppers for the garden after. I also got coffee and since it's a cheat day a donut. But since I woke up I've been feeling really depressed and I just crying.

I don't need a response unless you really want to I just really felt the need to get this out.

unwanted