@PaytonFaye2003 and @Avaray Corner
please let me know if you get this! its or own corner where we can talk!
@Avaray
u on i cant sleep can we talk pls?
@Avaray
@Paytonfaye2003 thanks for helping this oldie, been trying to find it 😖😕
Did you get my last post?
@Avaray
You found it, yay. and yes I read it. just not used to having rules...
@Avaray
This right here is mine and ur area, I made it for me and you so now we have our own spot!
@Paytonfaye2003 good idea, much easier to find!!
@Paytonfaye2003 i reposted it
there you are... Yes those rules...
It's our way of making sure that you're safe and in someway although you might not like the restrictions, there is something that makes us feel like we have some structure and that you are actually cared about..
My kids don't like stuff I say no too... But from a moms perspective we do it because we are trying to care for you, Payton is going to be an adjustment for you, but i think if you weigh it up, some rules, which alot of young people have and hate im sure! verses someone who cares that you are there, getting enough sleep, getting your focus on school, thats a person who cares Payts...as you get older im sure the rules will change, id rather have that security and know someone cares for me xx
@Avaray
I read it, I guess I will get used to the rules... I hope she dont take my phone.. That wont make me very happy!
@Avaray
Whats taking so long to reply???
@Paytonfaye2003 im old and type slow😝😁
@Avaray
You say ur old, how old?
@Paytonfaye2003 ancient😕
@Avaray
i dont believe you!
Are u old enough to be my mom?
@Paytonfaye2003 just turned 45 in feb xx feels weird like i was young just the other day and then... Hey what happened !!😄
@Avaray
so u can be my mom! you would be a great one!
@Paytonfaye2003 and i normally end up writing looong replies....
you'll adjust Payts... You can do this..
you might not like this.... But hey im the other side of the world😝 but seriously I'm glad she has some in place, it shows me shes trying to look after you and I'm happy to know you will be safely tucked in bed and not out.. That really worries me when you have been out, please give it a chance and don't run at your first disagreement or anything, they are going to come.. Believe me its part of being a normal family, but the important thing is she is on your side even thought it might not feel like it at times.... Its part of what we need to do, want to do because we care..
i am seriously so happy for you....
@Avaray
I just wanna be happy, and be with someone who really cares for me! But Im just afraid of messing up. when I get mad or upset I RUN. I cant control it.. Wish I can figure out what to do instead of running.. But Ive always ran... I dont know why I do it, I just do! I hope she will really like me... I hope I will finally be happy... Thats all Ive ever wanted... When I dont get my way I start getting mouthy. I feel i have to stick up for myself cause nonody else will... But I really am going to try and Im just afraid of messing up!
@Paytonfaye2003 have u told her that Payton.. Just like you told me now... Maybe it will help her understand you more x
@Paytonfaye2003 you try and run to escape the feelings you have inside ..but they can't be outrun... Bit by bit they have to be worked on and that hurt place inside of u healed...
I also want to run sometimes... Just get in my car and keep driving.. Then i think of the people i would be hurting.. And i cant outrun me...
@Avaray
Question are you on holiday break at the mo or at school
@Avaray
I am out of School right now! its 4pm silly
@Paytonfaye2003 oh 😬😁
Where did u go?
@Avaray
Im right here!!!!
@Paytonfaye2003 ❤
@Avaray
No i havent told her that... I dont wanna tell her that!
@Paytonfaye2003 try Payts.... Even if you write it like you did to me and tell her you want to make this work but this is the things that might come up and need help with... If a person knows things... Its a big step for them to understand what's happening and she can maybe try and help you with steps how to deal with it...
@Avaray
I dont want her to get mad with all the questions and I dont wanna bother her.. I will take it one day at a time and hopfully there wont be alot of rules and i can do what I want sometimes!
@Paytonfaye2003 as you get used to each other and the trust builds things will feel abit more normal... You've had to look after yourself for a long time Payts it's time for someone else to help u carry that heavy load....
I thought of a way to try not be too mouthy well 2 actually..
Remember our code and repeat that in your head.. STO.. Stop.Think.Override
And the other i was going to say count backwards in your head from 10.... But maybe from 50 would work better 😁 it will give you the pause in your brain to think before you react... What you think
@Avaray
Do u think I am old enough to Date? Do u drink COFFEE?
@Paytonfaye2003
Hmm... Dating ... No, lots of time for that when you're older, group of friends much better... When you're dating, things like school work doesnt become your priority and education is whats important because that's your future... The young man that you might want to date he might not even be around, but your education will get you places. Thats a good place to focus.
Coffee.. I love coffee, i like cuppachinos if they make it right and a brand of strong coffee we have here called jacobs...
But you seem to have trouble sleeping because you think over things alot and worry etc.. So coffee sort of helps keep you awake so if she says no coffee, thats probably why..
When i travel to another town i like to get a cuppichino from McDonalds, they make a yummy cup at that particular one
@Avaray
I love COFFEE I am not talking to any boys, just wandering if u think I could have one...
@Paytonfaye2003 lots of time when you're older Payts, and then you'll know more of who you are and what you want in a man, and learn the value of you and how you want to be treated... It's a natural question though x
@Avaray
Did you leave????????
@Paytonfaye2003 no. Im here..I'll tell you if I'm going to xx
I was just doing another looong one x
@Avaray
okayyy
Do U wanna play a game? 50 Questions?
@Paytonfaye2003 hmmm now you making me worried.... Do i get to say pass if i don't feel comfortable answering?
And lets make it 20, my brain is not doing ro sharp at the mo..
@Avaray
If you could go anywhere, where would you go and Why?
once u answer then u ask me!
Ok
Question 1
What's your favorite colour
@Avaray
Pink, babyblue and black!
@Paytonfaye2003 mine .. Black and dark green
Question 2
Favourite Animal
@Avaray
Horses
@Paytonfaye2003
Dogs, horses
Your turn i think?
@Avaray
If you had 1 wish what would it be and why?
My counsler is here... she needs me. brb
@Paytonfaye2003
That my son could be better xx
What do you want to be when you grow up
@Avaray
When I grow up I want to be a Rape counsler for Kids!