@PaytonFaye2003 and @Avaray Corner
please let me know if you get this! its or own corner where we can talk!
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
@agreeablekite4304 @Avaray
I know i sometimes say things I dont mean, and then Kite gets pissed off at me. But I love you both and I just miss our time together... I wish it could go back to the way it was. we would always talk aleat a couple times a day. Now I send a messages and u guys reply 1,2 maybe 3 days later... I just feel u guys are sometimes moving further and further away... so I try to drag you both in closer.... <3
@Avaray
Ty:/ only u and 1 other person remembered
@Avaray
I clicked on it but nothing happening
@Paytonfaye2003
Oh sorry I'm new at trying to post these videos 😀
Have you tried the other one
@Avaray
Im emotional today!!! but thanks love u
@Paytonfaye2003
Sorry Payts....love u too.
Did u do something with Molly today?
@Avaray
She hasent said anything.. I think she forgot too... Its fine.. But I aint telling her.. She will find out on her own...
@Paytonfaye2003
Sorry Payts...my husband forgot my birthday once .... It does hurt xx
Doesn't make you any less important Payts, peoples brains are sometimes just pretty much useless at times, I'm sure she'll get it right next year. She loves you kiddo.... I ended up telling my husband in the late afternoon because i was hurt and mad anyway...he didn't forget again😂
You are special Payts.... Sorry you got hurt today. Extra special big hugs all the way from Africa.
Lots of love Payts 💕
@Avaray
Since i was younger i would always hope next year would be better... It sucks... Havent had anything since my 5th Birthday... It just shows me Im not a priority to people... I am very Hurt... I dont know what To say... Im done, and Im over it... Havent had a good B-day in a long time. What makes Now any different... Im Hurting and u have no idea how bad this is Bothering me, and maybe it shouldnt be... but it is... I thought things would be different.. I think I am done... I am packing my bag as we speak.. Thanks for remebering... you... But I cant do this anymore... I really cant... hope your feeling better! Bye
@Paytonfaye2003
I know you are hurt Payts....
If Molly had remembered she would have done something special Payts... She's not them Payts... She just messed up and when she realises how she screwed up she won't do it again....
I wish I could talk to your Molly Payts.... And i wish i could take that hurt away... I cant though... Go talk with her... You know her alot better now, she might be strict and messes up, but she loves you kiddo. She has try to make you feel special at other times. Don't let the people from your past still keep controlling you and hurting you...she just messed up....she's not them..... This is your home...no more running, here is safe...
I mess up so much as a mom but i love my kids, she's the same Payts, learning as she goes. I told my kid the one time im sorry ive never been a mom before and learning how to do things right... She replied other peoples mothers know what they are doing.... Well that stung...but my point is we are still learning as we go and hate it when we mess up and hurt our kids. Give her a chance to say sorry payts, she does love you... Love u too payts xx
@Avaray
your right okay... i know this... just really bothered by it... but i know it aint her fault... maybe next year will be better... My birthday and christmas is hard for me... i love u ava and kite...
@Paytonfaye2003
Payts...when pain runs so deep my little friend it makes sense to feel the way you are feeling... Pain is not a nice thing and it links to and triggers so many other things...
Thank for not leaving and realising this is your home, even if Molly did well ...what kite sort of said..messed up
Hugs and lots of love Payts
Proud of you ❤
@Avaray
im at the park just sitting here thinking
@Paytonfaye2003
I'm still proud of u ...doesn't change with what you do or don't do xx and i get the park thing..... I actually do I actually wish I could do that too... But you know me and kite by now, my dear Payts please go and sit on the porch, it's not safe, we worry when u do that ...please we care what happens to u ok..love u kiddo ❤.
Let me know when you are safe at home xx
@Avaray
Im fine, im just sitting here... i just wanna be by myself... i am going to stay here awhie.. :'(
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
its 5:49am. im still up...
@Paytonfaye2003
Sort of to be expected...especially when the brain thinks things over and over again nd never switches off. That's why i eventually accepted that i needed a sleeping tablet and you know once you take it within half an hour you'll be asleep so your routine can get back in place. Brain and body cant function properly without sleep,
Things seem a million times worse or should i say the ability to handle those really bad things are impaired and it makes you not able to function properly... But u know this payts.... This house is a safe place to sleep... No one is going to come hurt you if you are asleep at night Payts... Take something from Molly so you can sleep and start letting your body start to heal...it helps with working on the tough stuff. You are safe kiddo...noone bad is coming there...Molly is your protector now..
In your room asleep safe in your bed with Molly loving u is 100000000 times safer then the park.. Get some help to sleep Payts...
@Paytonfaye2003
I'm not really feeling better, but thanks for asking xx
@Avaray
Im here..... Its been a long few days!
@Paytonfaye2003
It has I know Payts... I think you and Molly should sit down with a cup of coffee and have a good heart to heart.... She's the arms you need around you kiddo... She has your back and loves u (even when she messes up) let her in Payts, let her be what you so need her to be in your life. You are not alone.... But try let her in more and more as you can.
Hugs my little friend...xx I'm going to be going to zzz land just now, got an early start tomorrow again.
Lol Payts.. Ps i think u know who is catching her beauty sleep too.
@Avaray @Agreeablekite4304
Its daylight out and Im still awake...
Hi my name is Robin... Im a single Mother of a 7 year old son. Jan 5th, 2014. I lost the love of my life.(My sons father)..Two months before our son turned 4 years old. He went to the Hospital because his stomache hurt bad and while he was in the ER i was sitting with him. He seemed fine.. He just couldnt laugh because it would hurt worse. Well I was there with him for about an hr and then I had to get back home to our son... I never would of left him if I new How bad he really was... Anyways before I left I gave him a kiss and told him to call me or send me a text to let me know what was going on... He never called! The last thing I got was a text saying that he was being shipped to a better hospital t help him... Still I didnt think anything of it because I thought it was due to his weight of why he was being shipped out..... I told him to keep me Posted!!! Well thats the very last time I heard from him... I must of fell asleep with our son and when I woke up no call or text from him... so I called the hospital he got shipped to to see what was going on and they told me that he went through Cardiac Arrest for 15 min on the way there and that he was brain dead... Told me I needed to get there and Fast... I started to freak out thinking omg, he's going to Die... Our son will never see his daddy again.. it isent fair and I dont get how things happen the way they do... He was a good mad and loved us so so much... Everytime I would think of our son I'd start crying my eyes out! Anyways I went to the hospital and he was in SCU(special care until on Life support).... Thats when they told me I had a decision to make and that I didnt have Much Longer...
Thats when my life shattered... I didnt believe what the Docters were saying and I kept saying he will wake up.. Give him time... 5 days later they pulled the Breathing tube.. It was the longest moments of my life....I sat there Praying to god to please save him, we arent ready for him to go yet... We need more time.. Well, thats when His heart stopped..
As a child growing up, I went through so much abuse.. I was Raped by my uncle when I was just 5 years old... Then My mother met this man who molested me from the time I was 6 till I was 17years old... At 18 years old He raped me and I got pregnant...Believe it or not I was kinda happy because I'd finally be able to love someone who would love me back! Thats until 4 months into my Pregnancy when I went to The ER Because I had these pains and I was Bleeding... I was Having a miscariage.. I lost it!!! Then I turned to Drugs, beacuse I was so so depressed and didnt wanna feel or care about anything anymore... So I started doing Drugs with my mother... It got so bad one time That I got raped again by 2 men at once and thats when i hit Rock Bottom... SO i checked myself into rehab and stayed 28 days... Went home and relapsed... Started doing drugs again to block out the hurt and to ease the pain that I was in... It worked for a while...Then I finally said to myself, that I cant live like this anymore... and That I can make a better life for me and do something with my life... I havent used since! I was still pretty depressed that I started going to counsling Because It to the point of me trying to end my life.. Growing up not knowing really what love was. thinking that it was normal for children to be Abused... Not being close to anybody in my Family.. And always feeling like an outsider looking in! A year went by. I was still depressed, and very lonely.. All I wanted was somebody to love me! Well I got a Job, and it was going good... It was nice to look forward to a check... Then I seen this guy staring at me, I was staring back as well.. He came up to me and asked me if I was interested on going on a Date... I said I'd love that... Since that first date we never stopped being together... I moved right in with him right away and we were happy...I was really happy... I finally found someone who loved me.. And he did... Years went by, and we dicided to start a family... So time went on and For some reason I couldnt get pregnant... Then we Say we would stop trying and the moment we did. I was Pregnant.. I finally found the love I have been wanting my whole life... And we had a little boy who was our everything... He was Such a blessing.. FInally I got what Ive always wanted... A love of a Family... Then Jan 5th 2014... He Passed away... He was the love of my life, and Im so lucky to have such a loving man... Wow I WAS LUCKY... Then that quick, hes gone... Our son is now 7 years old.. And we miss him so so much... I havent been with anybody since... Now its, Me and our son agaisnt the world... I am Clean.... I am still young and I have alot of love to give... Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find Love again. But that aint possible... My Love is Gone... Please keep ur loved ones close because you never know it could be your last...
@peachWater2503
Thankyou Peach for sharing with us, and I'm truely sorry for what you have been through throughout your life...xx Thankyou also for that reminder to treasure the time we have with those that are special in our lives...we never know when it will be the last time we talk or spend with them. To value what we do have now. X
Hugs peach ❤
Hello.
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
Hello Ladies, How are you doing?Just wanted to say that I actually slept last night for the first time in a long time... Boy it felt nice and no nightmares/ bad dreams... I went to bed at 1:30am and woke up today at 10:45am... that felt so good....Most of the time I have bad dreams, thats why I cant sleep... So I try to not sleep... Just wanted to say good night.. Going to try to get some more sleep if i can.. Love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@Paytonfaye2003
Im so glad Payts..... Sleep tight xx love u 2
@Paytonfaye2003
I often startle myself away but last night was the first time in awhile that i didn't wake up until it was time to get up. Glad it's working out for you and that the dreams are abating. hugs!
@Paytonfaye2003
Hey kiddo xx that's great news xx I stopped my sleeping pill so its aaahhhhhh.. Not sleeping to good either. I love you kiddo and am always proud of who you are. Big hugs and sleep well my little friend. ❤😴😴
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
@Paytonfaye2003
Hey Payts... Hope u r doing abit better , hugs ❤
@agreeablekite4304 @Avaray
Hey, Just wanted to say Hi... Love you guys... Just sitting here cant sleep... School in going to be starting on the 6th... Hope you both are alright! Hugs
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
