@PaytonFaye2003 and @Avaray Corner
please let me know if you get this! its or own corner where we can talk!
Hey Payts xx hope you managed to catch a bit of sleep xx
Just sending you some av hugs too...and have a good day today.... Yeah this oldie has to go to work to....
Told u kite was pretty good 😜
Sending you some roses (i hope they come out as roses..sometimes im not sure what they look like the otherside when i post them... So if they are weird squiggly things let me know.. They are meant to be a red roses x 12 no 13 cause thats how old you are xx)
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Have a lovely day Payts
Hey Payts... Just seeing how your day went today xx And hope you are feeling abit better...💕
@Avaray
Im still in school, prolly going to get in trouble cause she told me to keep my phone home and i brought i with me... im not liking this new school and i wanna go back to the house... id leave school but i dont know my way home. I really wanna be home schooled and her name is Molly... i dont wanna be here anymore! Im sure i can find my way home!
@Paytonfaye2003
No Payts.... The afternoon is almost finished, talk to her when you get home please.... If you do get lost or something worse she will feel devastated... You can do this.. You can..
Please no more running Payts... 🌹
@Avaray
still have 2hrs...it aint fair!!!
@Paytonfaye2003 think of something you like .. Write Molly a letter, or just write your feelings down. You can do 2 hours....I know you can...see only an hour and 55 min left 😜😘
@Avaray whats your favourite subjects by the way?
I don't know where we are on the 20 questions list but you can work that one out, this oldies brain has been working hard today...xx
Ive just got home and its 7 at night. My mischief dogs like to run out the gate then run back inside and then stick their heads in my car door and the big one, shes huge but still got puppy brain!! But she likes to try slobber some licks on me!!
We down to 1 hour:45 min...
Yeah im a pain... But thats ok as long as i get a few smiles out of you.. Youre going to be ok... Just take some deep breathes when stuff starts to spin and get too much...and then rethink....Xx
@Avaray
We have 10 more!!! LOL
@Paytonfaye2003
Ok? ...New beginnings are hard..... Promise me...and think also of Molly, if I was her and I didn't know where you had gone, I would be beside myself... A few more hours and then you will be home with out that feeling of "i ran" and the stuff that comes with that.... talk to her... Tell her you wanted to run because of ....... .. But you didn't want to hurt her or worry her, and then talk your heart out to her Payts...She's there for Payton, chose to be there for Payton. 💕💕
@Avaray
I'm fine and didnt run! But boy did i want too... Today was a hard day at school and I dont like going! Wish I can be homed schooled or something. or quit and get my GED or something!
@Paytonfaye2003 so proud of you... I knew you could do it x
Did you talk to Molly
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
Miss talking to you both. Today was better than yesterday. wish you guys were on to talk. it seems like forever even though its only been a couple days! Big hugs
@agreeableKite4304
Hey Payts...just wanted to let you know I'm still around just been working through some things xx I see kite is talking with you, good xx you know she threatened to climb through the phone and hit me with a fish!! Long story.... But she was only kidding were'nt u kite! You were kidding...... Kite!!
Anyway i hope you are sleeping .....
Just letting you know I'm still here just laying alittle low for a few days, I'm ok.. Just working through some stuff and have therapy at the end and beginning of this week and next.. And that sort of leaves me in abit of a weird space for a few days... So I'm still here... Just letting you know i haven't gone anywhere, ok xx think of me as in " stealth mode " 😀 chat some more later ok x. And watch out for kite and her fish!! Chat some more 🌹🌹
And really proud of you by the way xx
I'll be keeping watch ok... And chat soon in a few days...promise xxx💕💕
@Agreeablekite4304
i just dont want to hurt anybody anymore... im just going to go! All i do is hurt people... Big hugs to you and @Avaray
Still in steath mode... But told u I'm still watching, Still watching xx 💕
S.T.O.P.
Av agrees with kite ....and no more running please Payts xx
And we are not angry with u....ok..
Going back into steath mode.... Still watching 💕
Yeah 😕😄
@Avaray
i miss talking to you? how are u doing?
@Paytonfaye2003 hi Payts x thanks for asking xx I m getting there, still got this jolly head cold and given it to one of my kids. Have therapy today, don't really feel like going, but to get where you need to get in life u need to do some really hard things even when you don't feel like it. Xx
@Avaray @agreeablekite4304
Tomorrow is a new Beginnging. I am really going to try and be happy for once. I know it aint going to happen overnight but I am really going to try. I'm going to try to talk to molly about my feelings and I know you guys say she cares for me and loves me and Im just having a hard time accepting the fact that someone could actually love me..
Tomorrow I am going to go to school and see if I can make a friend or 2 and take it one day at a time... I dont want to make anybody upset including molly cause nobody deserves it. I dont know why I get the way I do. I get so Mad at myself when I get happy because I feel I dont deserve to be happy... Its so weird that people actually do care about me and its going to be a good life I just know it... But I get scared cause I knock myself all the time!
Anyway big hugs to the both of you cause I wouldnt be here right now if you guys werent here... I would of ran and not looked back... Im trying so hard... Just not doing a very good JOB at it.. Anyways <3 you both... Avaray Miss you hope your okay... Pls talk to me about you... I want to be there for you, but you got to let me in!
Im ur guys online daughter hahaha. the Brat LOL
@Paytonfaye2003 proud of u Payts xx, it's hard to accept that someone can actually care and love u... It's hard changing a minset that has been there for yearsxx so it takes time and you will have those days where you want to run... But I seen you get stronger even though you might not see it xx and am so proud of you.. This stuff is scary, but I know you have the strength and determination inside of you to do this (and yes you will go backwards at times...but actually that's also a part of going forwards because there's stuff thats back there that needs to heal so you can keep going forwards xx) day by day... Im so glad about what you said about Molly, that really makes my heart happy, the more you let yourself accept what an amazing young lady you are and that she does care and love you, you'll find something you've never felt... Safety and with that comes much better feelings, 5 years from now you're going to look back and think, wow look at me now, you've got this kiddo ( sorry kite has influenced me 😜)
I pretty much think you are amazing and what's not to like xx. Hope your day goes well today xx
@Avaray
TY
@Paytonfaye2003 ❤❤
@Paytonfaye2003 💕💕
@Avaray
Can we talk today? hugs
Hey Payts.. Xx
How was your day today...
some days i feel like taking my life is the best option my life is nothing but four letters i hate it
@liam91404 Hugs Liam. I am so sorry you feel so about yourself. I believe there is so much you want to talk about yourself. Sometimes it's just the feelings that we have bottled up inside us and talking it out helps. You may want to talk to a listener here about things bothering you. Here is the link to the browse listeners page
https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners
In case you have a strong urge I suggest you talk to a hotline here
https://www.suicide.org/
Trust me help is just one step away and all you need is help to see things in a different perspective. Trust you will read this and follow.